我的❤情成绩单

New Blog...

2009-06-26T21:09:00.000-07:00

guys~ do u guys know tat dis is an old blog? I already had a new blog for sooooo long time ago. Some of u still asking me why I din update any blog oh... i had update my blog... but all in new blog... those who wan my new blog... ask the url from me ya ^^ love you all

陌生人朋友

2009-06-26T07:05:00.000-07:00

我的陌生人朋友，也是我的学长 Adson... 不知道你还有没看我的部落格。。。很多很多的好奇。。。很多多的问题想问。。。呵呵。。。虽然不知道你是谁，虽然只和你聊过几句。。。但很开心知道你^^

付出的形容词

2009-06-03T08:34:00.000-07:00

只剩下回忆了
但却变得模糊了
是二一三四
还是一二三四
简单的问题
也变成难题

你的付出
是细还是粗
是大还是小
过去了又何必再计较
在爱情里付出没形容词

我的付出
是甜还是苦
是多还是少
过去了又何必在计较
在爱情里付出没有形容词

只剩下回忆了
所以变得珍贵了
珍惜是解答
难题有了解答
是一二三四
不是二一三四

昨夜一整夜都睡不着，不知从哪儿来的灵感就写下了这首词。这算是我处女作作品吧,因为从来都不成写过词。懂得音乐的你们、懂得创作的你们，也许我的作品是非常不起眼的东西但对我来说是个很好的尝试。

每个词都有曲的相伴，但我的词却没有曲。曲会出现吗？也许当缘分到的时候曲就会出现吧！

回忆走廊

2009-04-24T19:02:00.000-07:00

我又回到了《心情成绩单》的走廊。朋友们，对不起！答应了你们会结束这个部落格，但现在我又到回来了。前晚我梦见他了，好久好久没梦见他了。原来对他的样子，越来越模糊了。是好事吧？！梦见他，心情是什么真的不知道。也许自己最失败的就是自己在想什么自己都不知道吧！

空气与风。。。人往往误以把空气当成风。空气不是风，风不是空气；空气会停留，风留不住。过去的感情是风，吹过了就不会再倒回。。。回忆是空气，永远都会停留着。。。那我呢？在那份回忆里，我到底是空气还是风？？？我不想当空气，永远停留在那儿。我想当风，永远不会停留在一个地方太久。。。

结束

2009-03-09T22:11:00.000-07:00

我在此宣布《我的心情部落格》将在 2009年3月9日，10.11PM 结束。我将会重新展开新的部落格，名为《重新》。部落格的结束代表一切切就此结束；而新部落格的展开代表一切即将重新开始。再见了，一切一切。。。

想知道我最新部落格地址的朋友们，请在留言板留言让我知道吧！=)

Gathering~ 3b2 '05

2009-03-08T22:52:00.000-07:00

Having gathering tonite at Tong Luo Wang with some old gengs of frens... Ah Kang, Ah Liang, Jenny, Angeline, Szeyan and Sarah. Really happy to see them again. Chit chat a lot...

Me and Sarah

Me and Szeyan

Me and Angel

Me and Jenny

Ah Liang, Jenny and Me... I miss you 2 a lot

All girls~

3D~

2009-03-07T22:58:00.000-08:00

I really don't know what in my mind now. Honestly, I don't know what I want know. 3D... 3D is a nice thing. Especially 3D's animation. But 3D in my life~ Down, Depress, Desperate....

I feeling want to give up everything. Give up my dream, give up my studies... But will all this worth? Who can give me answers? This is what life is... Full with question mark...

那个以前属于我们的地方

2009-03-07T12:11:00.000-08:00

我现在才发现,原来以前和你去了很多很多的地方.几乎整个古晋都被我们走完了...想去一个没有我们的回忆的地方都没有.但对这些地方,那些感觉没那么强烈了.有些地方甚至都在变化着...都在专修着.这些是不是都在暗示这我说是时候改变了呢?告诉我,我也该改变了?那个以前属于我们的地方呢?那个有最多回忆的地方呢?它也在改变着吗?或许我应该问的是,我还敢去那个以前属于我们的地方吗,即使它已经改变了???

其实自己的心...感受是什么自己也不懂.放下了吗?我不懂!!!现在也许我连我自己是谁我也不懂了.接了那通电话后,我更加不懂自己要什么.我该放弃现在的学业吗?那些条件真的很吸引我.这个学期会是我的最后一个学期吗?

0703日的心情分数:45%

心情？？？

2009-03-06T17:50:00.000-08:00

回家了。。。自己的心情是如何，其实自己也不知道。只知道自己累了，真的累了。累了。。。而变的懒惰了。。。

给一个人的部落格

2009-03-02T19:25:00.000-08:00

一个人，

认识你也快五年了吧？！喊你 “哥哥” 也快喊了三年多了。。。当初对你的那份感情如今变成了兄妹的感情。为什么要到了现在才让我知道你喜欢我呢？虽然你一直都没说出口，但你对我所作的一切远远超越了兄妹的界限了。认识你五年了，对怎样的人你会怎么的去对待。。。这我比任何人清楚。也就凭这一点，我远远的感受到了。。。为什么是现在？？？三年前你离开古晋的那一天，我心里的感情早就跟随着带你离开的那辆飞机飞走了；凭空消失了。。。

不要再对我太好了好吗？也永远不要把事实告诉我好吗？因为我不想伤害你。我不想再一个个的伤害爱我的人。。。我想一个人过自己的生活。也许是因为太了解自己了，所以才会知道自己一个人生活，这样就不会伤害到任何人。也许大家的背景都不同，我知道不会得到别人的祝福。所以。。。现在的我似乎没办法接受一个背景比我弱的男人。哥，这一点你懂吗?我想我也曾经与你聊过这一点吧？

“哥哥”。。。我喜欢这样的喊着你。我希望能永远的这样喊着你。我习惯了被你玩、被你整、被你这位大哥哥疼的感觉。虽然偶尔很气，但我真的很开心。我们之间唯有兄妹的感情能让我轻轻松松、快快乐乐的与你相处。爱情？？？我想这会变成我的负担。

哥，抱歉！这是我唯一能说的。我不懂你会不会看到我的部落格。我希望你会。。。因为我真的没办法亲口把这一切说出来。。。我还会是你最可爱的那位妹妹哦！！！呵呵～

一个人的妹妹。

单身 + 装傻扮笨 = 保护自己

2009-02-28T07:52:00.001-08:00

为了保护自己、为了不再让自己受到任何的伤害。。。一辈子的单身。。。一辈子的装傻扮笨。。。也许是最好的方法。

感情。。。不要了！不碰了！我不想再让自己受伤、不想再让自己哭。。。自己的眼泪是宝贵的！～我怕～所以我不敢。不敢触碰任何与情感有关的事。

任何的事。。。不去理。装傻扮笨的过日子。无论别人怎么对自己，就装傻扮笨的不去在乎了。累了～对所有的事都累了。真的没办法再去理所有的事。。。没力气了。。。

现在的自己只想过自己的生活。。。应该说过自己的单身生活。为了保护自己。。。一个人过日子，这是最安全的。我不会再让自己为任何人、任何事而再流泪了。我不会。。。我再也不会了。。。我也不要再流泪了。我的眼泪，如今对我来说就像砖石一样的宝贵。。。不！应该是它比砖石还要的宝贵。。。

刚刚才读完一份之四的 macro。写完了部落格就要继续了。。。加油～再见了二月的二十八日。。。

2802日的心情分数：65%

可爱的星婷 (^.^,)

2009-02-27T22:34:00.000-08:00

那钱星婷真的很可爱。。。不只声音可爱、性格也很可爱啊！！！哈哈～简直是让我们乐趣无穷。。。

因为他每次煮饭都是自己一人吃，反正加他也只不过只是加双筷子罢了。。。所以我就约他上来我的房间一起煮一起吃。他超级开心的。。。也一直要我教她煮。。。他说我下学期搬走了，所以要开始跟我偷师。不然下个学期没人煮给他了。哈哈。。。他啊！！！什么东西都能被她说成笑话。。。好有创意。真的好可爱。。。我们就一直一直的笑。。。笑。。。笑。。。笑。。。

考试又快到了。。。又要熬夜了。突然觉得很有压力。。。

2702日的心情分数：55%

与星婷逛街记之五气

2009-02-26T22:18:00.000-08:00

和星婷一起去 the mines 逛街买一些事物。原本是自己去的，之后 Pauline 说星婷想出啊但没人陪。所以就打给他约她一起出。从学校巴士下来后就看到 rapid kl. 猪头 driver 没停下来。害我还赶着过马路追他。这是一是气。。。

巴士走没关系，明明看到另一辆到了。等了半个钟他都还没倒转回来。这是二气。。。我告诉星婷我决定 boikot 他两个礼拜。

到了 the mines 竟然下起雨了。在里面大概逛了三个多小时雨都还没停啊！三气。。。

雨渐渐小了就打算出去等巴士回。笨蛋的我竟然带星婷上错巴士。四气。。。

uncle 带了我们去‘游车河’。我们很赶时间啊！！！没道德的 uncle 竟然停在路旁边休息、抽烟。还一停停了半个小时。五气。。。

气死我了。。。原本和星婷逛街是很开心的。。。但这五气毁了一切。。。

压力～

2009-02-25T21:25:00.000-08:00

突然之间觉得很有压力。。。很想哭。。。为什么就是觉得身边很多事呢？明明是解决了，但又似乎还没解决。我觉得好累好累。有时我真的很想不说话、自己一个人。。。但我这么做所有人都会觉得我在发脾气或什么的。我该怎么办？我很想找个黑暗的角落多起来让自己好好的静一静。

‘它’ 我满意吗？这是我尽了力所得到的 ‘它’ 吗?虽然大家都不错。。。或许我对自己的要求太高了，但我对 ‘它’ 真的觉得很不满意。。。

2502日的心情分数： 40%

Birthday dolnut

2009-02-24T20:43:00.000-08:00

Sure u will think that birthday dolnut means dolnut = birthday present. WRONG!!! IS birthday dolnut = birthday cake... Replace cake by dolnut. Haha... Very creative right??? It's aunty Pualine's birthday. She don't like cake so we buy dolnut for her. She superb love dolnut..

Birthday dolnut... With candles on it...

Birthday gal~ Pauline. Sweet smile... =)

Me and birthday gal and the dolnut...

Me of cause. Act cute again... Hehe...

P/S: Seem problems still haven't solve. I'm stress now...

2402日的心情分数：55%

House~ Semester 2

2009-02-20T23:17:00.000-08:00

After searching searching for a few day... Finally today we found a house for our next semester... Happy~ Happy~ That house not bad loh... And cheap... RM700 per month... Clean also... Aiya~ Forget take photo to upload in blogger... Nvm lah... I took it next time. Stop blogging now... Cause I'm tired dy. =(

Library ~ Sleepy

2009-02-19T12:24:00.000-08:00

12.12pm... At library right now waiting for Pauline and Audrey... But they will only come at 2pm because they still having class. I'm so so sleepy and boring rite now. And the stupid wireless are just so stupid slow. What for I come so early to wait them? Cause I don't want to be alone at room. Wennie back to home town dy. Grace and Sook Leng have class. Left me alone. Actually I got class at 10am till 11am. But my 8am class cancel dy so what for I go to that 1 hour class. I just skip it lah. Statistik... Not important class also... Superb boring and don't know what that lecturer is lecturing about... Aiz~

Still got 2 hours to go... I'm cold right now.Suddenly feel so cold... I didn't bring my jacket along. Suppose want to bring my scarf, but I thought I should won't be using it. Gosh~ I'm so regret right now. Please!!! Anyone can borrow me jacket now? I'm changing to penguin dy..

Stupiak me~

2009-02-18T02:14:00.000-08:00

Gosh~ Why I's just so stupid??? Once in my whole life do such stupid thing... I'm very very sorry. Feel sorry to Sook Leng. She type her assignment for a long long time dy. Then something happen to her chart. She couldn't edit her chart so was asking me to check for her. I thought she had saved her document... So I closed her document without helping her saved it 1st. Gosh~ She took a long time to do it. Now oledi 2.12am... She has to retype it again... =( Why I'm o stupid??? Sook Leng... I'm very very sorry... Now I accompany you. I only go sleep when u sleep... Sorry~

朋友～

2009-02-17T17:54:00.000-08:00

***哭泣着的我***

SAK 3002 的 lab 我没去。交代了她一声，把 lab activity 交给她后我变自己离开了。。。之后我变收到他的信息。她说 SAK 3002 要分组，我与 MANDY 及 LEE SAN 同一组。当我去找 MANDY 后，我发现原来一组可以有两个或三个人。加我。。。我们这一 geng 一共有六个人，不多也不少。。。可以分成两组。。。但为什么我被分去其他组了？我顿时觉得好像被她们排斥。。。

刚开始只不过是因为买书、复印 Notes 。。。的事没让我知道。现在。。。

朋友。。。我的朋友们在哪儿了？为什么我变了一个人？？？Grace 说我 either 是问清楚或彻底的放弃她们或自己一个人承受一切。。。

选择一：问清楚。我该怎么问呢？当问到了。。。如果真的有什么事。。。所有的一切都不能挽回了。大家就很难再面对大家。之间的那道墙变得更加高了。即使试着用楼梯爬过去也是件有难度的事。

选择二：彻底放弃她们。这个选择我真的办不到。我没办法放弃自己的朋友。。。即使她们对我很差很差。一旦是朋友就永远是朋友啊！！！

选择三：自己一个人承受一切。也许这是唯一的选择也是最好的选择。坦白说，自己一个人去承受真的很辛苦。。。我现在已经很辛苦了。但我还有的选吗？这么做。。。受伤的人也只有我一个。。。

这些就是所谓的《朋友》吗？顿时的我好想念好想念以前的朋友。他们那诚恳的心。。。无时无刻都那么的真。。。

我开始看不清楚他们的心。我开始分不清楚那个是真那个是假。。。或许就像 Pauline 说的。他们这帮朋友只不过是因为利益才接近我们的。。。

我该怎么办呢？？？

Angel, Jess。。。我突然好想你们。或许不止你们，还有很多很多的朋友我都很想念。美芬、勤莲。。。

1702日的心情分数：40%

5.11am~ 17.02.2009

2009-02-17T05:11:00.000-08:00

It's now 5.11am and I'm online-ing... Can't sleep... I also don't know why. May be because today slept for 13 hours dy... Actually I woke up at 2am something. I tried make myself sleep. But my eyes were just keep blink blink untill now... Gosh~ I still got class at 8am and got quiz... Hope my eyes and brain will still blink blink until my quiz end...

Resting day~

2009-02-16T02:08:00.000-08:00

I haven't update my blog for about 3 o 4 days dy rite??? This four days really busy days for me... Exam... Rehearsal... Pesta Ang Pau (PAP)... This four days didn't even sleep up to 3 hours. Have to sat for exam then after exam straight go for rehearsal. After back can't even rest and sleep because have to do revision for exam... Today I slept till 3pm then I woke up. Sleep for 13 hours ah~~~ That should be enough to replace back my four days tireness I think... Actually didn't think of letting myself rest for today. Cause 3pm got tutorial class, I didn't expect I will sleep till so late. So I didn't go to tutorial class. Then 5pm got SAK class. Since I just woke up, so I planed let myself rest today. Skip SAK class....

Got my SAK result just now (check from web).. Well~ Quite ok... But still feel not so happy with it... Told myself nevermind cause I'm really busy and lack of sleep during exam time... So stop blaming myself.. Must study more for next mid term... Gambateh~

Talk about the PAP rehearsal and last nite PAP... Well~ I not so happy with it... The rehearsal... They only do the rehearsal 2 days before. And everything are just sucks.. Pluss keep on changing at the very last minutes. I'm incharge with the follow spot, and they just keep changing... And other performance not really that good. I incharge quite a lot of activities... This the quite dum one... Then during the real PAP which is yesterday, sucks... That's what I can say. Some of the performance are more worst then rehearsal. OMG~ My 1st big event in UPM... No matter what... I still feel happy and touched... Bewteen time, happiness, sadness, anger, disappointment... Every feeling also have. But I'm quite happy that I get to know more friends and learn many thing new. Example... how to use follow spot... How all the PA system works... =)

Photos??? Sorry~ No photos... Really busy untill we don't have the time to take photos...

铁石心肠

2009-02-11T23:38:00.000-08:00

铁石心肠。。。原来自己根本都做不到。面对了二十多年的事，如今我以为即使再面对自己都不可能会再流泪或有任何的心情。我还以为离开家、上了大学后自己就能不再理会家里的任何事情。。。也不会再为家里的事流泪或烦恼。每次回到家，都很希望快点离开。。。我还以为自己能铁石心肠的对待自己的家人。虽然我知道这样做很不孝，但有时我真的事受不了了。。。做中间人，还是很不愿意做的那种真的让我觉得很辛苦。原来自己错了。。。但今天妈妈带来告诉我一切时，我哭了。。。原本我只是静静的在听。我没预测自己会流泪。。。但我流泪了。。。在朋友们的面前流泪了。这还是第一次。。。被他们看到我落魄的样子。。。他们都很关心的问我怎么了，但这都不是什么光荣的事，我又要怎么说呢？我只能说家里有点事。。。就那么简单的五个字。。。

对着家里人我做不到铁石心肠。。。对着他，原来我也做不到。无论他怎么对我。。。我还是做不到。原来自己偶尔还会回忆以前的点点滴滴。。。虽然心里真的好伤，但嘴角还会微微的笑。。。脸上还会有少许的幸福。。。这些回忆，我知道自己恨不了。。。这些回忆，我知道以前、现在、以后、未来都会是美好的回忆，我都会很珍惜。（*现在的我哭了）我也知道自己现在流的眼泪是带点悲伤的回忆的眼泪、开心的眼泪、幸福的眼泪、珍惜的眼泪。。。悲伤？？？只有那么的一点点。。。没事的！陈婉珊没事的。。。哭，我也是笑着的哭。。。不会是伤心的哭。。。

《一个人生活》最近一直都在听这首歌。。。我想自己能习惯一个人生活吧！我知道无论如何自己都得活着下去。。。走完自己现在还有的路。虽然不知道还有多长的路。。。但都还要很努力的走下去。。。

叶子在窗外轻轻摇动
人行道没有行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我
感觉如果要走谁能说 NO
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情怎么会是这个结果
爱情是个梦而我睡过头

1102日的心情分数：45%

PAP~

2009-02-10T23:43:00.000-08:00

That stupid PAP... Today no duty also din't inform me. Duty schedule state i duty on Tuesday... But din't say tat schedule only for last week. Apa lah~ Today I go genta buday wait for them (duty place at there). Usually start at 7pm. I waited about 1/2 hour dy but din't see anyone. Message my leader... He said no need duty today. What lah~ Do you know tat that genta buday was so damn freeky??? Inside the wall all is mirror... I wait alone there leh... Hate...

1002日的心情分数：60%

332 的0902日

2009-02-09T21:00:00.000-08:00

今天是假期。。。没课～我呢也不用去 PAP DUTY，但 GARCE 11点到一点有 DUTY。所以所我们今天全都在房间很努力的读书。

和前几天一样都是自己煮饭吃。没什么材料，所以今天煮的汤我也不知道叫什么名。今天第一次煮。有什么材料就放什么材料咯！～有 IKAN BILIS，大葱，蒜米及鸡蛋。哟～味道蛮不错哦！只有电饭煲，所以要煮什么菜肴就要看看自己的创意啦！

吃饱就当然开始读书了。。。读啊！读啊！开始觉得累了。。。所以我就拿起我的相机把我室友的丑样拍了下来。哈哈。。。

这个 GRACE，在床上读书读到睡觉哦！天啊～这样睡，舒服吗？？？

这的 WENNIE，有书、有耳机、有抱枕。。。到底是听歌、读书还是睡觉啊？？？一个两个。。。偷懒～

这就是我的桌子啦！~我当然是最勤劳的啦！！！哈哈哈。。。一边读书一边玩电脑。哇哈哈哈～我睡觉的脸？哎哟～不用拍了。我很乖的。。。我没睡觉的。

之后接到星婷的紧急电话，要我帮他去 CAFE 找他的 PAULINE 妈妈。我还以为他要问 PAULINE 东西。哪知道我在 CAFE 看到 PAULINE 一个人傻傻坐着。他说他等星婷。。。原来星婷打来就是要说他没去 CAFE 了。她姐姐带她出。天啊～PAULINE 还帮他叫了食物叻！而且他还拿了 PAULINE 的锁匙，PAULINE 不能回房间啊！唯有食物打包回去给我然后 PAULINE 在我的房间等星婷回。炸到～星婷回来后。。。我又突然被叫下去帮他们啃 KFC。太多了。。。星婷的朋友又没在。。。最后我问 GRACE 他们要不要。其实我们煮好很多晚餐了。再加上刚才打包的食物。。。真的很多啊！他们说吃的完所以我就拿去房间给他们了。最后。。。吃不完。哈哈。。。这是我的预料之中。我跟他们说了我不会帮他们啃了，因为我撑到很辛苦了。很饱啊！唉～现在留着他们迟点吃。。。哈哈。。。活该啊！还说吃的玩。

这几天都很迟睡。很累啊～

0902日的心情分数：65%

3R~ Reuse, Reduce, Renew...

2009-02-08T20:29:00.000-08:00

又在房间煮饭吃了。。。我们很有创意哦！用 CONTAINER 的盖做切菜板。Reduce~Reduce cost. 不用花钱买切菜板了。哈哈。。。 Reuse~Reuse the container cover

今天的材料。切好了~ Onion, Carrots and Potatoes. 煮什么呢？煮 tom yam soup。用 Maggie's tom yam cube。

香喷喷的饭啊～饭煮好了就把它放进碗，这样就能用电饭煲煮菜啦！Reuse~

今天吃蛋哦！但不是煎蛋咯～是什么？看看下图的材料是什么吧！？

Tomatoes。。。煮番茄蛋。本来应该是番茄炒蛋，但我不是用炒所以只叫番茄蛋。嘻嘻。。。只有电饭煲。。。所以要有创意点怎么更改食谱。

0802日的心情分数：70%

332 = bedroom = kitchen

2009-02-07T23:41:00.000-08:00

wahaha... Today after my ko-k, Wennie and I go out to Sri Kembangan their buy vegetables. We cook oh~ Finally I used my rice cooker dy. Bought for 1 week dy and now only I use. We jz cook ABC soup. Nice~ Nice~ Yummy` Yummy`...

Mushroom, fish ball, carrots, potatoes, onion and tomatoes. That's our ingredient... Wo~ Hehe... No need eat cafe food dy... Wennie that sar po don't know how to cook so sure is me who cook loh. She just help me wash rice and those vege... Got help me wash wash then ok du lah... Not bad dy...

Aiz~ Actually just back from PAP activity. Got meeting and rehearsal just now. Whole day din't rest. So tired now~

0702日的心情分数：65%

老朋友！～

2009-02-05T23:08:00.000-08:00

今天和我的一位老朋友出。。。真的很老哦！！！嘿嘿。。。我们认识十五年了，从小学一年级开始认识到现在。真的开心见到他哦！

这就是我的老朋友啦～美芬。。。就想名字一样的美。要对自己有信心哦！下次见面时就要和你一起拍照了。。。嘻嘻。。。美芬说了他的一些心事让我知道。原来每个人都面对着问题。。。不只是我一个面对吧了！一起加油吧～加油！加油！我们一起去看家有喜事。天啊！我们在错门等。。。应该在 box 4 但我去 box 6。还好去到时时间刚刚好。那部戏超级好笑的。。。可以去看看哦！！！

小笼包

北京炸酱拉面

酸辣汤拉面

之后我们去龙的传人吃上海拉面小笼包。很好吃哦！我吃北京炸酱拉面、美芬吃酸辣汤拉面。我们还吃了上海小笼包。一级棒～

除了见到美芬很开心，还有一件事让我很开心。我终于买到那双鞋了。那次和 wennie 去 one utama 的 vinci 看到很喜欢。但太大不能买。刚才在 midvalley 的 vinci 又看到它了。有我的 size 耶～太开心了。。。

本来打算和 room mates 打火锅的。。。但 grace 有活动所以取消了。然后本来约另一位老朋友（勤莲）一起出来的。。。但今天一直找不到他。所以就算了。。。可是今天能见到美芬，真的很开心。。。
=)

0502日的心情分数：90%

自私？？？

2009-02-04T22:41:00.000-08:00

朋友与朋友之间应该有自私的存在吗？？？还是自私的存在是理所当然的？？？

在这个学期里，每个人的自私心慢慢慢慢的浮现出来了。以前无论什么事(notes,answer...)我都会和他share。现在呢？？？他们知道些什么我都是最后一个才知道的。我应该也学习自私吗？上了大学就应该学习自私吗？所有自己以前的朋友都面对同样的问题。大家都开始插不进新朋友的gang。。。

今天和一位老同学聊天，大家都聊起这个问题。她说她很想念中学时期的时光。。。希望时间能够倒流。我也希望！但大家都很明白的知道这是不可能的事。。。为什么大学的生活不能像中学的生活一样没自私的存在呢？我是不是也该开始学习自私了呢？她说：“真心的对待别人，他们有一天一定可以感受到得。”这我也相信。。。所以对着他们，我也没埋怨也没生气也没对他们说。还是笑笑的对着他们、用心的对着他们。。。

0402日的心情分数：65%

憋着已久的眼泪，你好！

2009-02-04T00:51:00.000-08:00

12.42pm... 原本有课的我又翘课了。 hubungan etnik 的课，不去也罢了。。。去了都浪费时间啊！那我宁愿自己呆在宿舍自己温习。

看了一位很要好朋友的部落格、看了她给我的留言，此时此刻的我真的好希望朋友们在我身旁。此时此刻的我哭了。。。哭的稀里哗啦的～

宁静的夜晚～

2009-02-03T23:56:00.000-08:00

不知道为什么今晚特别特别的安静。。。所有的人都睡了吗？？？平时爱吵吵闹闹的马小姐怎么静下来了呢？吵吵的我也静了下来。刚才突然停电了，一向来一停电就大喊大叫的马小姐今晚变静了。当我们把窗帘来开时，对面座的人也好静好静。今晚的夜晚怎么了？昆虫的叫声也少了。。。今晚的夜晚宁静到有点可怕。。。或许考试快到了，所有人都定下了心乖乖的读书吧！？

我呢？我也和今晚的夜晚一样变静了。或许不只是今晚吧！～第二学期一开始就变静了。。。和朋友们的相处好像多了一道墙在阻挡着。这道墙把我和他们都分隔了。。。该面对的问题此中都该面对，只是现在或迟点罢了。。。这些问题我都预测过，但我们预测会那么快的发生。而且第一学期的相处让我觉得这些都不可能会发生。但原来我错了。。。我对他们的关心好像是多余的。就像Pauline说的吗？我不该对人太好。。。只要我有notes我都会问他们要不要一份，但他们呢？有什么我都是最后知道的。我应该学习自私吗？但朋友之间应该有自私的存在吗？我好矛盾。。。我只知道这个学期的我变得好静好静、也好寂寞。。。

今天的考试真的好简单哦！老师真的是太好了。。。爱死您了，老师！～

0302日的心情分数：60%

Study smart not study hard

2009-02-02T23:35:00.000-08:00

Now gambateh gambateh study oh... So many asignments, tutorial and EXAM.... Alamak... Study smart but not study hard... =)

K.L...

2009-02-01T08:42:00.000-08:00

Going back KL today... still gt 3 1/2 hours left... Going back with Jess, Su ting and Betty. Luckily I'm not alone again for this time. I'm so glad... =)

Cab anyone told me what happen to my celcom broadband??? I can surf net, I can sign in to ym, I can sign in to Skype but I just can't sign in to my MSN and surf in hotmail... What happen???

Oh~ I really miss my all cute cute room mates... And I miss KL too... Kuching too much sad memories for me... KL... The best~ =p Well~ I will still love my Kuching miao miao city...

King of the hostel (cats)... I'm back today... Wahaha... Do you guys miss me??? I miss you a lot... But I'm sure aunty Pauline doesn't miss you. Don't scared her today when you guys see her ya... Hehe... Well~ My hostel a lot of cats. And they seem not scared us. So we called them king of hostel... Wahaha...

没用的我

2009-01-31T21:56:00.000-08:00

为什么脑海里还一直出现没用的的东西？我觉得好累好累。。。求求“你们”别再缠着我了好吗？什么时候我才能真真正正的过我自己的生活呢？我可以怎么办？

3101日的心情分数：40%

恨~

2009-01-30T20:56:00.000-08:00

这字已经深深的刻在我心上了... 除了恨!!! 我真的容纳不下任何的字了...

雨～

2009-01-29T20:21:00.000-08:00

下了一整天的雨了。。。今早五点就去青山。虽然下着大雨，但我们还是很坚持的继续路程。今年没在青山拍到照。以往我们都会先拍拍照才回家，但雨一直一直的下。。。部落格也没照片可放了。唉～朋友来，都没机会拍找照。嘴巴一直叽叽喳喳不停的。。。

去青山的路程。。。我再熟悉不过的路。。。一路上我都是让自己闭着眼睛。我真的不敢让自己打开双眼。。。回的路途也一样。。。我不敢再看那些我再熟悉不过的东西。。。虽然它们非常非常的熟悉我，也因为这熟悉而让我的悲伤、让我的眼泪一直在心里翻滚着。我唯一能控制的就是不和他们见面。假装他们是不存在的。。。

我很怕很怕再见到他。。。也许今天的雨下的真好。雨啊！谢谢你！因为你的出现，我不必去面对他。。。我真的很不想仔去碰触那些所有的不值得。。。

2901日的心情分数：50％

奇妙、奇迹

2009-01-28T20:38:00.000-08:00

生命是奇妙的；爱情是奇迹的。。。

刚才去了阿姨家拜年，表哥表嫂都在。表嫂的肚子都四个月大了。。。今年五月宝宝就会诞生了。好开心哦！！！表嫂说是男的。。。帅帅的男宝宝哦～一定会像他爸爸一样那么的帅。=) 问了表嫂宝宝会不会一直踢他。表嫂说不会哦！因为还小的关系。。。但表嫂说他可以感觉到小宝宝在动。就想鱼儿在肚子里游动。。。感觉很奇妙。。。生命就是那么的奇妙。。。尤其是当有个小生命在肚子里的时候更加奇妙。哥哥的朋友今天来拜年。。。他们也成了家也有小孩了。小小宝宝真的很可爱。。。看着他们可爱的脸蛋、开着他们纯真的笑容，心都亮了起来。。。

懒惰两个字真的是大过天。就因为懒惰，我没读到书。。。有！但只是一点点罢了！～真的是因为懒惰吗？还是有其他的原因呢？这几天的心情都一直反反覆覆。。。自己的脑袋里装了什么自己也不知道。刚才走了一条我再也熟悉不过的路。。。泪水又开始在心里翻滚着。想想又要再见他，心情变的更糟糕。。。怎么办呢？就因为这些情绪，自己真的没办法把自己所读的东西装进脑袋里。。。读了一两页就把书本关上了。我真的要自己的情绪这样的被影响吗？真的要让自己的前途毁在那所谓不值得的情绪上吗？爱情是奇迹的。。。可以让人在一瞬间滑进地狱里。。。

奇妙的生命。。。

好大的眼镜哦！！！可爱～

先生。。。你是谁啊？！

怎么办？？？不知道是谁抱着我不放！

2801日的心情分数：50％

PS：刚才差点出了车祸。。。谢天谢地！没事发生。。。平安～

2nd day of cny

2009-01-27T19:20:00.000-08:00

Girl vs Boy~ Black vs White~

Who is that??? My elder brother loh... Who else!!?? Do we look alike?

My young brother... Again~ Do we look alike??? And don't you feel familiar with his shirt? Haha...

My mum youngest sister = My youngest aunty. She looks pretty right??? She just so so skinny... Make me look more fat... =( *sob sob*

My young brother's girlfriend, Natahsa... OMG~ Since when she is taller than me... =( Sad lah... I look superb short.

These photos took at airasia airport on Friday... The day we going back home. I just realise these photos just now... Hehe..

Jess, what kind of look is that??? Look so desperate lah u... =p

Finally u smile... Sweet~ Haha...

With Jess spec... How do I look with this frame spec???

回忆

2009-01-26T20:35:00.000-08:00

大年初一，好静的一个大年初一。。。我从没试过过那么静的新年。也许是因为很多亲戚都去旅行的关系吧！电视节目、电台节目也少了很多很多的新年节目。。。是因为长大了所以感受不到新年的气氛吗？？？

今早出门在车里，脑子里出现了很多的回忆。。。为什么又突然浮现出来了？画面一个个的飞过。原来这些回忆一直都在。。。一直一直都在。。。好累！我不知道该怎么作。回到来家乡，所有的回忆就会一一的浮现。。。

2601日的心情分数：50％

New year~ New hope~ New me~

2009-01-25T22:15:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year Eve... Busy~ Busy~ And busy~ This morning once wake up then do some decoration thing. After that online again and have some nap. I'm 21 this year. And this is the 1st year my family had reunion dinner our own. Usually we had reunion dinner with my grandpa, grandpa and uncles. But this year my grandpa went to Johor. So he asked us every family eat alone. Aiz~ This is also the 1st year we cook our reunion dinner by urself. Last time we order from restaurant. This year~ I cook. Wahaha... Quite fun...

My feeling??? I don't know. That feeling seem still there. I'm seem haven't forget everything and I seem just lying to myself and everyone. I don't know what is my feeling now. Seem very complicated. I just keep let myself busy, busy and busy so that I won't think too much. But I kn ow no matter how hard I try... It's really difficult. Like this afternoon when I bring some food to my grandma (mum's mother) there. Once I passed by somewhere, those memories are just very vivid in my mind. I try to swing my head, swing away everything. But failed..

New year~ New hope~ And I also hope can have a new me... Wish everything will be fine. I know what the past are not worth. Everything is not worth anymore. Everyone is just realistic... Last time I always feel that love is everything. I always think that as long as got love, no money also never mind. Now I realized that really mind... New me~ Will only chase for realistic for now... 10k!!! That's Angel and my goal. I must achieve it.. MUST!!!

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone. New year, new hope for everyone....

2501日的心情分数：65％

回来了～

2009-01-23T22:13:00.000-08:00

回到古晋了。。。JESSICA，SU TING AND BETTY，我们四个坐同一辆飞机。有朋友的陪伴真好啊！！！

今天的我很倒霉。今早在厕所毛巾竟然掉下来。只有下半身，还好有内在美。糗死了啦！然后去了 FEP 回宿舍时，巴士竟然停在 PUTRA FOOD COURT。司机叫我下车换另一辆巴士。天啊！我要等到几点才有巴士？我决定走路回。走回宿舍，巴士都还没到叻～之后。。。我才发现我没带房间锁匙出来。唉～倒霉！！！只好去 PJSD 拿 MASTER KEY。。。好黑的一天哦！

搭 3.25PM 的飞机。但 DELAY 10 分钟了。在回家的路途上，脑海里不再有回忆。心情似乎定了下来。我真的不在乎了。。。还是只不过自己在骗自己？？？之后就去逛街。。。我发现自己的心情写着一个“怕”字。我很怕。。。真的很怕会遇见他。对他的感觉，只剩怕与恨。。。

2301日的心情分数：65％

Trip to Bursa Malaysia

2009-01-22T21:47:00.000-08:00

We went to Bursa Malaysia today. Bacelor Economics + Accounting + Business gang go together. We have to gather at 7.30am, so I wake up super early today, around 6am something. After prepare then go Aunty Pauline's room. We go get bus at 7.30am. When reach our FEP, still got aound 15 minutes time for us to have our morning tea. That Sar Po Wennie, she was so worried that the FEMSA didn't prepare breakfast for us. Cause Pauline told her that seem we have to get our own breakfast. Since after we reach FEP still got 15 minutes time, so we went to FEP cafe eat. Unluckily... No food for us to eat. So we just drink milo. After we all gather, FEMSA member distribute breakfast for us. Very unluckily again... The breakfast was sucks. The bihun very salty and don't taste nice. Aiz~ Bad morning... Before we depart, we took some photos... Well~ You know!!! Taking photos is our favourite... Hehe...

Hm... Before we went to Bursa, we thought that we will see crowd in the Bursa. We will see the score board and people shouting "Buy! Sell!" and there... Seem our imaginary very damn lausy... When we reach there, totally different with what we had imagine. No crowd, no score board... We were given a presantation and visit the Bursa library... That's our activity. So disappointed. The library quite nice. Many books and thesis... The manager said that we can use the library only after we get a letter from our university and only can use it for doing assigment purpose. And the manager said that all the books are very expensive and the most expensive are around 40,000 pound... Pound!!! Not RM ok... But he didn't show us that book...

After that we have photo taking... Took photo under the big sun. Aiz~ But the scenery really nice. We took quite a lot of photos. You all can all the photos in my facebook. I will try upload all my photos in blogger. I try my best. If can't then you guys go my facebook there... I'm not going to upload in friendster, cause I'm gonna close my friendster account dy...

We left Bursa at 12.30pm. Feeling desperate cause we didn't have any fun. And we even have to take our lunch in bus. Most worst is that our lunch so damn "TASTY"... Got bau hangus... Aiz~ Back UPM, wait bus back kolej. All that Malay keep pushing me, I almost fell down. Arg~ I cant get in to bus and have to wait again... Hate... Wad a bad day for me...

My five daughters (from left: Siew Leng, Wei Mun, Sook Yee, Venice, Wennie, Me)

Big Bursa Building Behind me

Economics + Accounting + Business = Big Family

Chinese gang for Bacelor Economics

Desperate~ Had to take lunch in bus

2201日的心情分数：50％

Blogger is angry~

2009-01-21T10:46:00.000-08:00

It has been four days that I didn't write my blog. Cause busy with assigment and I'm trying to finish up all my homework before I go back my hometown for Chinese New Year. And also because the stupid wireless in hostel make me hard to surf net. Make me no mood to write blog.

Last few days, I read my friend's blog with the title " Does Sarawakian Lives on Trees? " EXCUSE ME!!! What does this mean??? My friend study at USM, her course mate thought that we, Sarawakian still lives on trees. PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASE! What century is it now? Oh My God!~ Do you guys from west Malaysia read news??? Do you guys read newspaper??? I'm sure there sure have any report about Sarawak and you guys sure can get some photos about Sarawak. Sure got published photos about houses at Sarawak. OMG~ Hey!!! We Sarawakian richer than u guys from west Malaysia ok!!! At least most of us now stay in houses and not in flat... At least much more family afford to buy themself a house and not a flat. And at least every family is afford to own a car, and not like west Malaysia that most family don't own a car. Please~ Go surf net about Sarawak. Sarawakian don't live on a tree house!!!

Last Friday, we are given assignment from our macroeconomics lecturer. Our lecturer... We never like him. Cause he never prepare before he go in class to teach. And he don't even prepared any slide for us. No matter we are sitting in front or at the back, we never get what he say. Stupiak lecturer~ Talk back about my assignment. He was asking us to find journals about ASEAN economics and he when look through on Monday. OK! Then we went to library and do our assignment at 7pm... While searching for journals, we all at the same time keep complaining. Why? That stupid lecturer just ask us to find journals. Hey!!! There are so many things that we can talk about economics. He didn't give us a specific title and just ask us find. How are we going to find? How after we find it and all the journal cant link to the title that you will give us later. There are so many topics that we can do on economic... Unemployment, inflation, deflation, economic growth... Ok! Fine! Nevermind! We just find what ever journal we could... That Aunty Pauline still can jokes... She say name the file we save as SEXY 1, SEXY 2 and so on... Everything for her is just so sexy.. =.=!!! Ok~ Back to the main point. After we search our journals, we gave him look through on Monday. Know what he say?

Lecturer: " Kamu kena bagi sendiri satu tajuk dulu baru boleh cari journal... "

What the heck!!! Now you only say we can get ourself own title. Why that day in class when we ask you didn't mention about it. So angry lah! So... Good news for everyone is that we all have to refind again all our journals. Shit! And on the same day, he asked us that do we had any comment about his teaching. So, this is our conversation.

We: " Encik, kami harap Encik akan tayangkan slide show semasa Encik mengajar. Sebab kami tidak faham dengan apa yang Encik ajar. "

Lecturer: " Kamu orang mau saya berubah, kenapa pula kamu orang tak mau berubah dan mengikut cara saya? "

We: " ..... (silent) "

What the shit man!!! We had been attending your class for four weeks dy. Every week 3 classes, so 4 weeks we already attend 12 classes. These 12 classes we already try our best to cop what he say... But we really get nothing. Excuse me! Whole class around 40 ++ student. Should be you change change and sesuiakan with our cara... Majoriti win rite??? What the heck you want 40++ students change just for your class. Since semester 1 untill now, every our class do prepare slide for us. Only your class didn't have. 1st class that don't have slide during teaching... Damn angry!!!

Another angry case happen this morning... Venice, Pauline, Audrey and me when to PK today. Cause we want to.... "cuci gigi" (hehe... Don't know how to say in English.) Today is the 3rd time Venice when to PK cause last two times she wait so long and haven't reach her turn. So she give up waiting and went we us this morning. We go at 7.30am, very early in the morning. Wait and get our number... After Venice turn to register, the nurse told her that we can't do it today cause today only got 1 dentist and we didn't do our appointment. Ok! I'm ok about that but not ok for Venice. Cause she wait yesterday then she told the nurse she will came back today. But the nurse didn't told her that she need to appointment. Damn shit ok!!! And the nurse say as long as want "cuci gigi" then need do appointment. Hey~ We are here for 1 year dy... Why never told us about it? And why some of our friends don't need any appointment? And... Usually after we make appointment then we don't have to get number and wait again right? But the nurse say when we come for the appointment, we have to get number again. Means we have to wake up early again... So so angry... Arrgh~

Tomorrow will have a trip to Bursa Saham KL. Will it be fun??? I'm still wandering and feeling exicited. Then Friday can go back hometown... But I had so many thing to bring back lah! Gosh~ So heavy... I don't know how to go back with all those bag... Sob~ Sob~ Crying!!!

Later 12pm got class for Hubungan Etnik. I'm still wandering want to attend class or not. Cause I'm really lazy and I'm just wasting my time there... Aiz~ How? How? How?

2101日的心情分数：70％

At Aunty Pauline's House

2009-01-17T20:01:00.000-08:00

Yesterday and today, I was at Aunty Pauline's house. Cause all my room mates are not in, so I follow Pauline back her home. Also because need to do our assignment. Her parents... Her family was just so so funny. At her home, I only eat eat eat. Her parents bring me out eat... and bring me to pasar malam. Gosh~ Really feel so pai seh... Now they are cleaning their house preparing for CNY. Me in room online. Cause I cant help do anything. They also don't let me help... Many funny things happen at her house lah... But I don't know how to express the funny feeling out throught writing. I just can say that Pauline's family really very very very cute...

Photo posting...

2009-01-16T17:20:00.000-08:00

Pity~ All my daughters look just like hungry ghost!!! I do give them food eat... Not my fault. Sob~ Sob~

Ah Chak~ Who is that?

We are women in black~ 'Lou Gu Po' Club now become gengster club. Wahaha...

Me and Aunty Pauline go shopping at The Mines...

I think just all this photos that I want to post up. Should be no more.

Very tired today. Sleepy and tired~ So I skip class again today. Skip my ECN3105 class. Go back have nap. But now back to library. Cause ECN3105 got assignment need to do. So meet Pauline and Audrey at library...

1601日的心情分数：65％

Happy Hour wif Aunty Pauline

2009-01-15T23:56:00.000-08:00

Class till 11am today. Then actually going to have discussion with Bakti Siswa's group members from 12pm till 2pm. We said that we meet at library, I waited them for 2 hours but none of them come. Even the group head also didn't come. Worst is that they didn't even sms let me know that they they won't be coming. Geram betul lah~

Today don't know what hapen. Most of us wear black today... Pauline, Audrey, Siew Leng, Wennie, Kah Wai and Me... Six of us wear black and look just like gengster betul~!!! Haha.. Well! "lou gu po" club now become gengster club dy... Ganas betul~

2pm after Pauline and Audrey finished their class, we went to The Mines. Cause that Aunty Pauline want to buy CNY clothes. Then we eat pizza. Long time didn't eat pizza dy... Yummy~ Yummy~Supper delicious. Hmm... I bought myself a bag today. Bag again~ Wakaka... I lazy to take foto oh! Take next time if I remember ya~ =p Blek~

Well~ I just remember what happen to me yesterday and I forget to write in my yesterday's blog... I have class yesterday at 12pm... And I'm alone. Cause Wennie, Grace and Sook Leng they all got class on morning. I didn't expect one of them will back. So I didn't lock my door and bring key when I go to have my bath. After I finished my bath and back to room, I saw Grace standing outside the room. I asked had she locked the door... She said yes!!! And the worst is... I don't have key... And she took the wrong key out... All our thing: matric card, handphone... All lock in the room. We were locked outsied!!! Ah~ Luckily Aunty Pauline was in room. Rush to her room and asked her called Wennie come back to rescue us. Luckily I finished bath and I was not with my towel... Haha... Well~ Seem we had bad luck that day. Locked ourself outside and Wennie almost lost her file. Actually want to rush back rescue us, but she had to find her file. So we waited her for about half and hour I think... May be more then that... Thanks God that we got rescued by time. Cause Grace got class at 11am and I got class at 12pm... Sweat~

Now very tired... Actually don't want write blog, but nothing do so... Haiz~ "lao gong zai" sick dy... Take care ya~ Now try so so so hard to upload some photos. Photos we take just now during class MTH 3003 and photo I take with Pauline at The Mines. The wireless line so so slow. Hard to upload...

1501日的心情分数：65%

P/S: Sorry ya~ I try my best dy. Photos can't be upload... Line here too slow. I wait it upload for about 1 hour dy. But still can't. Aiz~

Sri Serdang

2009-01-14T23:17:00.000-08:00

After through today, know I'm really familiar with Sri Serdang area. Pauline, Audrey and I went to search house. Cause we planned to move out next semester. Walk for the whole area of Serdang but no house for us to rent. Got 2 houses want to rent, but they want us immediate move in. Sorry~ We can't. We only can move in during June or July.

I will never forget 18/42 this road and 1870 this house... Made us walk here and there... Arg~ Angry~ Tired~ Not only 18/42... Still got 18/42A, B, C and D... The road 18/42 was inside 18/38... Oh gosh~ So hard to find.... Walk till our leg pain dy... Will never forget today.

1401日的心情分数：50％

翘课的一天

2009-01-13T23:54:00.000-08:00

今天是我这个学期的第一次翘课。没办法啊！不翘课。。。我就没时间出去了。因为弟弟的裤子买太大了，要回去 ONE UTAMA 的 ROMP 换。还好可以换！！！谢谢 RO也去MP 哦～太爱 ROMP 了。哈哈哈。。。今天也去弄头发了。可是！～弄到太卷了。OMG～电完我直接绑起来。。。希望过几天会比较好咯～今天才报名 TUTORIAL CLASS。朋友帮我报名今天五点的班。所以去了 ONE UTAMA 就立刻飞回学校。累死了！！！真的好怕会迟到哦～幸好没有。今天的 TUTOR 很不错，名叫 JOHN。抱歉！不是我没礼貌不叫他 SIR 或 MR。但是他自己要我们叫他 JOHN 的。哈哈。。。上完一个小时的课就去 PUTRA FOOD COURT 吃晚餐及讨论 HUBUNGAN ETNIK 的 ASSIGNMENT'S PROPOSAL。明天要交了。。。回到来，却看到我的朋友们好象忽冷忽热那样的。唉～我不知道啦！刚才讨论完我就自己去 GAZEBO。PAP 要我们跟场。。。看戏剧部们排练戏剧。很不错。。。蛮搞笑的。。。在那儿我也认识了一些异性朋友。进来大学的另一个目的就是认识多一点朋友。现认在做到啦！！！YES～认识了两个 ACCOUNTING 的异性朋友。。。开心认识你们 =) 我的女儿们现在在我的房开派对、聊天。PROPOSAL 怎么办？不知道。。。他们都不理！他们说用回上课学期 SOSIOLOGI 的 PROPOSAL。但两个科目都不同，怎么用？我说了。。。但他们坚持。。。我没话说了。。。

1301日的心情分数：70％

此时此刻的我

2009-01-12T23:03:00.000-08:00

此时此刻的我。。。很累！很累！不知道为什么昨夜很早休息了今天还是很累，也许是因为天气热的关系吧！发现我的时间真的不够了。。。很多东西要弄。明天可能又要开始翘课了。。。

今天的心情也很底很底。。。就像谷底那么的底。朋友们都问我为什么那么的静，他们以为我生气他们。但。。。我自己也不知道。我没生气他们，只是不想说话。刚才 SAK 3002 的 PRESENTATION 糟透了。我用的 POWERPOINT 是2007 的但学校的电脑却是 2003。DOCUMENT 不能开。还有因为朋友的 PENDRIVE，现在 LAPTOP 及 PENDRIVE 都有 VIRUS。

感觉自己很倒霉。。。走了一整天的路，脚很痛很痛。。。刚刚九点多才回到。因为九点和 COURSE KING 他们 MEETING。谈些下届 COURSE NITE 的事。我们也想有个 DINNER 给 SENIOR 与我们 JUNIOR 的。因为我们真的太生疏了。尤其是我们 JUNIOR 都分成男生女生两派。希望这些活动进行之后大家的关系会变好吧！

1201日的心情分数：60％

帽子女孩逛街记

2009-01-11T23:29:00.000-08:00

今天有两位帽子女孩去 ONE UTAMA 逛街。我们一整天都带着帽子，连逛街都带着，所以就是帽子女孩咯～哈哈。。。转了好多的站哦！第一个站就是 UPM 巴士站等巴士，用巴士转去 KTM SERDANG，再用 KTM 转去 KL SENTRAL 站然后从那儿搭 LRT 去 KELANA JAYA。最后再用巴士去 ONE UTAMA。好多站哦～我们快在里面迷路了。太大了！！！我们的午餐就是一片超大鸡排了。。。两个人 SHARE。。。够了～够了～都是 WENNIE 再买咯！我只是买了一件衣和一双鞋。因为之前都买够了。然后其余的都是弟弟和哥哥的。。。但我的大包小包让我看起来好象败家女哦！唉～我们从大概两点逛到五点。回时去等巴士，差点在错的巴士站等啊！！！幸好我有打个电话给慧仪问他在哪里等巴士。。。我们坐 METRO 回到 KL。之后又在 KOTA RAYA 逛一下下。。。还好弟弟的帽子没冲动的在 TIMES SQUARE 或 MIDVALLEY 买。那儿都卖 RM29。90 － RM39。90 之间。昨天在 KOTA RAYA 看竟然才 RM19。90。。。差太远了吧？！

如果没问 WENNIE 我们还有剩下几个礼拜就放假，我真的不知道我下礼拜就回了。天啊～我还以为自己还有两个礼拜的时间可以逛街。。。时间过的真快！现在我真的觉得时间真的不够用。自己也没剩多少时间了。。。还有很多的事都还没作完。。。怎么办呢？

我买给弟弟的衣服和帽子，但都被我拿来穿了。。。哈哈。。。很帅对吧？！

1101日的心情分数：90％

UKM 朋友之逛街记

2009-01-10T22:46:00.000-08:00

今天上完了 KO K 就去逛街。和 WENNIE 还有 UKM 的朋友。我们去了 TIMES SQUARE 及 SUNGAI WANG。我和 WENNIE 去了 FOOD & TEA 吃。好吃～好吃～

逛到很累。。。虽然没有收获及很累，但很开心。。。因为 UKM 的朋友实在是太可爱了。姐夫一直作弄我们。他还叫 WENNIE 早餐，因为我是晚餐嘛～哈哈。。。。等 KTM 回的时候，一直被骗以为 KTM 到了。尤其是那俊杰。。。一直骗我们，坐着突然站起来说 KTM 到了。不只我们，其他陌生人都被骗啊！更气的是那俊骐眼巴巴看着我们下错站都不叫住我们。还好大姐发现到立刻叫住我们。。。气死了～

逛完就回家吃杯面。可怜吧？！因为不知道要吃什么所以就索性回宿舍吃杯面。我们也带了大姐进 UPM。因为他今晚在我的学校有活动。他没跟他的学校车因为跟我们去逛街。天啊！一下说是在 DEWAN ZABA，一下又是 BANQUET HALL。最后。。。BANQUET HALL。。。明天继续和 WENNIE 去逛街。因为今天没收获。。。所以明天我们去 ONE UTAMA。。。嘻嘻嘻。。。

WENNIE 喝的津津有味啊～

偷喝 WENNIE 的。。。哇哈哈。。。

我的 JASMINE TEA～ YUMMY！！！YUMMY！！！

轮到 WENNIE 偷喝我的。。。

SEAFOOD SALAD ROLL～

我的最爱～ CHEESE BAKED CHICKEN WING RICE。。。

等 KTM 时狼狈的样子。。。

1001日的心情分数：85％

家乡～

2009-01-09T22:26:00.000-08:00

好久不见！为什么会是这样的题目呢？这几天写的部落格都很短很短。。。也不是每天都写部落格了。回到了这里让我觉得很累。。。不是因为忙碌，而是因为在这里的生活你都需要一直在 “运动”。所谓的运动就是走路啦～这里不是自己的家乡了，不像在家乡不用走太多的路因为都有车可以用。。。这里也不像家乡可以不用挤巴士。。。这里的生活让我累到想静下来好好的写一写自己的部落格，好让自己可以发泄下心情都没办法。也因为不是在自己的家乡有 STREAMYX，所以也很难上网写部落格。其实，这个地方属于我吗？有时觉得很累，很想放弃。但这不都是我一直以来的梦想吗？离开家乡出来学习独立还有我的大学梦都一直是我的梦想不是吗？唉～自己的家乡。。。我真的很不想回。那份回忆它一直都在。。。那份回忆已经定居了在我家乡。。。回到家乡，它有如我的影子一样一直跟随着我。很烦！！！很讨厌！！！虽然这里的生活很累，但至少还有一班朋友陪我玩、陪我闹、陪我疯。但有时我会突然觉得自己和他们合不来。不是不喜欢他们，就是有是他们所聊的话题。。。我 “混” 不进去，所以只能静静。就像昨天和他们去玩时，他们也发现到了我很景很静。他们问我是否有心事、是否不开心。事实上我没有不开心，也没有生气他们。。。但他们昨天的察觉让我觉得很开心。因为至少他们还是关心我的。朋友～谢谢你们！Wennie, Venice, Me, Sook Yee, Wei Mun (from left) 他们四个都是我的女儿

Happy Hour~

2009-01-08T23:48:00.000-08:00

Today class till 11am only... So Wennie, Venice, Sook Yee, Wei Mun and me plan go watch movie at MidValley. We watch The Spirit. Oh My God~ Waste my money only. Such a sucks movie. Don't know what the movie is talking about... Wasted my RM 7 ah~ Guys!!! Don't go watch that movie... We go eat Sushi King loh... And Sweet Chat... And take photos too. Haha...Shopping sure got... I bought 2 PDI shirt. Now very tired loh. So I don't write much. All the foto... Can you guys go to my facebook and see.. Coz it's hard to upload in blogger oh... Sorry~ =p

减肥计划之打羽球记

2009-01-07T04:36:00.000-08:00

实行了减肥计划了。。。昨天和 PAULINE，AUDREY，KAR PO，及 WEI MUN 一起打羽球。但没一个钟就要下雨了。气死我了～然后今早九点和 AUDREY， PAULINE 又去打。真好玩啊！开心死了。。。

今天我去了两次同样科目的班。我进错班。。。上了一堂我没必要去的课。浪费时间哦～唉！！！我很懒惰写了。很累。。。下次再写。。。

Delicious~ Food that I cook...

Go shopping just like OPASAN...

My shutter... So Kesian...

Quick post~

2009-01-06T13:35:00.000-08:00

Everyone~ This will be a quick post... no foto. Photos will be upload next time ok? Cause me now at hostel... Hostel wifi sucks. I can't online. Only can online during class time, mean when at falculty... But only can online a while only. Me now at computer class... So damn boring. 3 hours class, wasted just like that. My class today since 8am till 3pm. NON-STOP!!! I'm dying ok?! I'm really sleepy.

Yesterday when I back to hostel, I was unpack my thing. OMG~ My room was just like having war. So many thing and I don't know how to tidy. Took me about 5 hours to finished tidy. So damn tired. And I didn'[t even eat for the whole day. After finished packing, start class at 4pm till 7pm. I didn't really have rest yesterday. Whole day only eat 1 meal. After class 6pm something eat... Actually my class end at 7pm, but the lecturere end class early at 6.30pm.

When back hostel, Pauline called me up to get teksi driver number. Sin Tyng was sick. OMG~ Really make me worry. Actually want call teksi to bring her to clinic but the guard not allow. So she help me call ambulans. I acompany her to PKU. Well~ Her boyfren with her too. That time I just back from class, so is around 7pm ++... Didn't bath... Then acompany her to PKU dy... Really worry about her. But today, she get well dy. And she seem forget what had happen last nite.

Can't write any longer... Photo I post next time when convenient for me to 0nline. Tata~

I'm back

2009-01-04T23:56:00.000-08:00

Hey~ I'm back to blogger. About 4 days I didn't write my blog dy... Cause facing some internet problems and make me can't online. Gosh~ I got too many foto to update. But not tonite. My mail box full with mail... My tagged... Frenster... Everything.... Many thing need to uodate now... I will write again tomorrow may b... Just want to say... I'm really having fun in this whole week...

又又逛街了。。。

2008-12-31T11:55:00.000-08:00

又又逛街了。哈哈。。。我们从星期日逛街逛到今天。利害吧？？？嘻嘻。。。今天大概要九点就醒了。约了佩诗还有他的朋友在 MASJID JAMEK 见然后带他们去 WAN UTAMA。等不到巴士所以我和慧仪就决定坐 TEKSI 去 ASIA JAYA 的 LRT。还没上车前，慧仪明明问了那司机有没有去 ASIA JAYA 的 LRT。他明明是说有哦！我们上车后他却说去 TAMAN PARAMOUT 而已。我们跟他说我们要去 ASIA JAYA，他却骂我们叻！很凶的说他没去那儿。。。气死我们了。。。TAMAN PARAMOUT 就 TAMAN PARAMOUT 吧！我们就从那儿去 MASJID JAMEK。我们

接了佩诗他们后我们就去 WAN UTAMA 了。天啊！我们从大概早上十一点多逛到下午三点多。利害吧？！哈哈。。。我们先到吉林去吃超大鸡排。我没吃咯～因为喉咙痛了。。。我吃了开心便当，很好吃哦！也在那儿和慧仪一起拍照呢！！！嘻嘻。。。又有战利品了。但不多。。。还记得我买给我弟弟那件很帅很帅的外套吗？佩诗也买了件给他的男朋友呢！他买白色的。。。

之后我们就去茨场街 (PETALING STREET) 就因为佩诗要买肉乾给人。哈哈。。。买完了就送他们回 STATION 坐 LRT 回。我和慧仪也坐 LRT 灰家。天啊！今天竟然在 LRT 里看见了两位帅哥。帅呆了。。。哈哈。。。之后懒惰等巴士了，我们决定坐 TEKSI 回家。这为 TEKSI UNCLE 好好哦～因为今天很多人都会去 COUNTDOWN 所以很赛车，TEKSI UNCLE 却会绕另一条不赛车的路。太好了！不吃我们的钱。。。说到 COUNTDOWN。。。我和慧仪两个人乖乖在家和电脑一起 COUNTDOWN。。。可怜～

啊忠明天下来 KL。。。明天下午要去 PUDU 接他。之后三天就要和他一起去疯了。哈哈。。。好啦！！！不说了。看照片吧！！！

我与慧仪～两位美女在吉林拍照。。。

开心便当！好吃～好吃～

SOYA MILK～

今天的战利品中，这是我的最爱。VINCI 的手表哦！！！
我相机的朋友～哈哈。。。

KEYCHAIN～可爱吧！

这对耳环其实是前天在 SG WANG 买的。忘了 POST 进 BLOG。。。

新的一年到了。新年快乐～2009

3112日的心情分数：85％

Shopping AGAIN~~

2008-12-30T02:16:00.000-08:00

I was so so lazy this morning. Actually I set my alarm 7am... But then I snoozed twice... Then I extend again the alarm time to 7.30am... Then I snoozed again. Lastly Michelle thought that couldn't wake up so she woke me up. Terpaksa loh~ Terpaksa woke up after she woke me up. Haha... Chasing bus today, then whole morning rushing here and there. OMG~ So damn tired!!! Meet Michelle up at Petaling Street this afternoon. I'm so so sorry... Cause let Michelle wait me for a long time. Aiz~ Very pai seh... We ate McD then went to survey some strings price. Well, I also not so sure what is that. Hehe... Next we when to Sin Ma buy Michelle's friends birthday present. A BIG GREEN BEAR... So cute lah... I bought myself a .... tabung (Alamak~ forget tabung in English is what) and a pair of cow cow. That's for my bro and his gf... That's their birthday present. Both birthday coming soon...

This is the big green bear that Michelle bought. Sob~ Sob~ Wish it's mine...

My tabung... So yellow... Cute!!!

Pair of cow cow that I bought for my bro and his gf. Cute? My bro horoscope is cow, so I buy cow loh...

3012日的心情分数：80％

逛街的日子。。。

2008-12-29T20:57:00.000-08:00

今早真的觉得好惊讶哦！！！竟然能在巴士站遇见 TSAI。我上了巴士后，巴士在下一个站我遇见他。他也觉得很惊讶。。。一个在巴士里一个在巴士站。。。哈哈。。。

逛了整半天的街哦～好累！！！我们去了 PAVILLION，LOT 10 及 SG WANG。。。晚上还去了 PASAR MALAM。慧仪带了我去 PAVILLION 吃超大鸡。。。我们也吃了何仔面线（应该是叫何仔吧？〕。。。可惜没拍下，实在是太好吃了。。。哈哈哈。。。。但我们有拍下 PAVILLION 的大圣诞树。=p 之后就去 SHOPPING 咯～我的战利品就在以下的照片里咯。。。

我与大圣诞树

慧仪与圣诞树

很帅的一件外套～我弟弟的

帅吧～哈哈。。。偷穿我弟的外套

新水壶

DISNEY 2009 日历

我的日记簿

一堆战利品

在 PASAR MALAM 买的拖鞋。。。哈哈。。。

2912日的心情分数：85％

Back dy... KL...

2008-12-28T23:50:00.000-08:00

Finally back KL dy... Quite angry today.... Bcoz of that stupid teksi. Wen Pin, Sheng Lung and me back together with teksi. The teksi drop us at kolej 15 then we ask the teksi bring Wen Pin back kolej 10, but the teksi driver don't want... And so firce... He say he only stop at one place only. Please... He just have to drop her on the way he back... Aiz~ Luckily I remember that later I want to go out and I already book a teksi. So I ask Wen Pin wait me put my lugage back to room first. I was so rush till I forget to slip my room's key in Pauline's room and forget bring Michelle's thing for her... OMG~ Luckily my teksi uncle very very kind, he drop Wen Pin to her kolej and din't charge her... Thanks Mr. Kamal.... Then I went to Michelle's house... We went Midvalley after that... Shopping.... Hehe... Ok lah... I very lazy to write liaw... Post some photo... This is Sha Tai new temple... After renovation... Tata~

2812日的心情分数：80％

Last day...

2008-12-27T21:44:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow going back KL dy... My luggage can say finish packed dy. I think I din't missed anything. After today, may be I will less blogging dy. Cause back to hostel not like home. Home got streamyx so can online everyday. But back hostel no wireless, very hard want to online.

Today day is the 1st day of November in chinese calendar, my parents when to temple. So I also follow them. At there, my dad asked me:"Tomorrow I have to work, can't send you to airport. Your elder brother will send you, is that ok?" Can I say no??? Sure can't loh... He has to work. Although I just go there study and not that won't come back... But when he said he can't send me... A bit sad... Don't know why everytime I go back to KL, my whole family sure must send me to airport... Hehe... Well~ Very warm of cause.

Temple that we went this morning. Still having renovation

Harbour View Hotel

Some old shops at Main Bazaar Road... Places that most western tourist love...

Hilton Hotel

James Brooke Cafe.. Nice or not??? Sorry ya~ I never been there before. Not I don't want go lah... That place superb hard find place parking...

Small fountain at Water Front. Just next to James Brooke Cafe.

This colourful building named Alacart... Star Cineplex is there. Now having renovation oh...

This dog... y aunty's dog... She love to act firece. Always bark at anyone. But~ But when u go close to her, she will quickly hide herself... Actually she is just a coward. Haha....

2712日的心情分数:65%

Lazy = Luggage still haven't pack = Boring blog

2008-12-26T05:53:00.000-08:00

2 more days left then I back KL dy. Gosh~ I still haven't really pack yet. I don't know how to pack oh. My thing seem too much but I don't want take too much luggage... And my big luggage, I really scared will over weight. Aiz~

Today whole day at home... Online chatting with "lao gong zai"... Then afternoon have nap... Then just now go aunty there. Just back home and straight post my blog dy. Very lazy and tired... And I oso need start packing dy. So tata... Write more in my next blog.. Hehe....

2612日的心情分数：75％

Black Christmas

2008-12-25T19:39:00.000-08:00

It's really a black Christmas for me this year... Cause I'm sick. Fever~ Feeling so sick and down. Cause can't go out dy. Actually plan go out with Michelle... But all plan damage just because I'm sick. Sob~ Sob~ Sick, so do nothing today beside online, watch movie and resting. Chat with "lao gong zai" this morning... Then have nap during afternoon. Feeling much better... Oh ya!!! Also took some photo of my naughty doggy..

He really good in acting... Pretend to be inocent...

Really lazy... Lazy doggy...

Merry Christmas everyone... Nothing to post today. Cause I'm really sick and no energy to write... Tata~

2512日的心情分数：50％

My Former School Part 4

2008-12-24T21:44:00.000-08:00

My form6 school... Cause S.M.K Kuching High didn't have form6 class, so we have to move to S.M.B St. Thomas for our form6. Well~ A lot of memories in this school... but don't want to talk about it anymore. Let's view my school...

Principal House

Classroom at below and above is James Wong Kim Min Assembly Hall

Outside Principle House... This is the place where we usualy 'sam pa' (gosip). Haha...

Still not there when I was at that school. Just appeared... New thing for me.

One of school small garden

School lab

Staff room. Just finished renovation

This is the block where my classroom located... My classroom at below on right....

Aim Higher

Small small fountain... Below is our school field... Forget to capture that... =p

Well~ I don't deny that I do work hard during form6 but not form1 till form5... Haha... At S.M.K Kuching High... No trophy... Only cert I got... But at S.M.B St. Thomas I get 3 trophies... Trophies and cert...

2006~ 1st trophy. Excellence Award 2006 Form 6 5th Position

2006~Thomians Star - Bronze

2007~ Best Academic Achievement Award 2007 Form 6 4th Position

2007~ Excellence Subject Award 2007 Form 6 (Economics)

2007~ Thomians Star - Silver

Again! School leaving cert. Just to proved that I'm really from that school. Wakaka...

Done... Finished my blog today... That's my lovely schools... =) Merry Christmas to everyone and Happy New Year...

2412日的心情分数：75％

My Former School Part 3

2008-12-24T21:20:00.000-08:00

After wrote the blog "My Former School Part 2" then I went out have dinner dy... Back now and continue 'My Former School Part 3". Hehe...

My next school which is during form1 till form 5, S.M.K Kuching High. Just get burnt last month... My 1119 English cert hangus sudah. Gosh~ Miss this school a lot...

Part of school that got burnt...

Staff Room

Above it was our school library. But now gone dy... Hangus~ Aiz...

Block 1 (On the left) Block 2 (Center)

Block 2 (Center) Block 3 (Right)

School Assembly Hall + Basketball Court

School Mission

My school leaving cert. Just to proved that I'm really from that school. Wakaka....

**To Be Continue

My Former School Part 2

2008-12-24T18:06:00.000-08:00

My 2nd school... Which was my primary school S.R.B Chung Hua No.2. My primary school going to move dy... =( So sad... Move to Stutong there. I didn't manage to go back visit my school and visit my old teacher... Sad~ Sad~ I study at there from primary 1 till primary 6. Well~ Last year at that school, finally I didn't something that make my school feel proud. Haha... I still remeber Kate, Amy and I, 3 of us went for a Recyling Art Competition and we got 1st. That was a big news. Cause even newspaper did report about us. Not only for 1 day... But for the whole week. Wakaka... We so proud cause that competition, we only registered a day before. We didn't even plan about it. And we didn't even plan wad we want to design. We only decide on that day. Haha... We design a garden... Named EVER GREEN GARDEN...

These are some newspaper cutting... My mum keep it...

Our cert...

Our trophy...

Photo taken by the reported. That is Kate's mum and that is my dad.

This is the trophy given by my school. 为校争光将

My school leaving cert

**To Be Continue...

My Former Schools Part 1

2008-12-24T17:47:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas everyone... Ho~ Ho~ Ho~ Who had forgotten to drop me a present oh??? Hahah..

When back to my former schools today... S.M.K Kuching High and S.M.B St. Thomas... Just to get my cert. Haha... back kuching for 2 months dy, and only now I go and take my cert. OMG~ That day S.M.K Kuching High got burnt... And our cert all hangus. Even my 1119 English cert also hangus. The clerk said if i wan get a new cert, then have to go police station make a report then go JPN at Simpang Tiga get a new cert. Alamak... Report police? Did I heard wrong? Just a cert also need report police... Not I.C leh.. Gosh~ I give up... Means I didn't go report police. Cause that cert I think not so important gua~... Hehe... As long as I had my SPM and STPM cert then ok dy... Then we go Boulevard... Just buy some junk food loh... Nothing special.. Ok lah... Let's start things about my blog title.

Well... Going to talk about my former schools in today's blog. I got 4 former schools, so my blog will separate into 4. If not the blog will be SUPERB long. Haha...

Everyone's 1st school sure is kindy... Mine kindy at Tadika Wan Chu. At Green Road there, but now don't know move to where dy...

CUTE... Haha... Beside cute no more other word can describe liaw. Well~ I'm really cute. Wakaka....

This is my final year report card. Cool rite?! My dad still keep it until now. ANCIENT...

My kindy school leaving cert... Very ANCIENT TOO...

**To Be Continue.....

网络感情

2008-12-23T19:53:00.000-08:00

忙了一整天。。。累了。。。也病了。。。陈婉珊终于病了。哈哈。。。这是什么话啊？！很像很喜欢自己病似的。不是啦！只是已经预测了自己会病倒，只不过不知道几时罢了。哇哈哈。。。

今天看了以为朋友的部落格，题目是“网络感情能信吗？”我的朋友不信！因为他觉得没安全感，也不想被欺骗。我也不信。。。或许有些人认为网络感情和一件中情差不多吧！在网络上，有些人刚认识就成为情侣了。我觉得这很慌妙！没见过真人，都不知道对方是谁。。。怎么一起？

在网络里聊天时，如果对方是男生。。。多数有个问题他们一定会问的是“你有男朋友吗？”你可以答有或没有。如果你的答案是没有，那他们就会问你“为什么不去找一个呢？”听好咯！是“找”。。。有谁能给我找这个字的意思？感情是用找回来的吗？“找”是一种很特地、很故意的一种动作吧！？每次被这么问时。。。心里都觉得怪怪的。怎么找啊？！找的到都不是真感情啦！感情。。。应该用“遇见”这两个字来说吧？！遇见。。。不知不觉的遇见。。。因为感情是在不知不觉中的状况培养出来的。在网络上和一个你从不认识也没见过的人，哪而儿来的不知不觉呢？哪儿来的培养呢？所以我从不信网络感情。。。如果你告诉我，你们在网络认识的。见了很多次面也相处了很久才一起的。。。这我可以接收。。。这我能信。。。

坦白说，我也有网络感情。。。不要惊讶！不要觉得奇怪！不要觉得我说一套作一套！因为我不同嘛～因为我的“老公仔”很疼我很爱嘛～因为我也很疼我的“老公仔”嘛～哇哈哈。。。没有啦！我开玩笑罢了！！！但我的确有“老公仔”。。。我们的感情就像小时后和朋友玩家庭游戏一样。你扮爸爸我扮妈妈。。。懂吗？所以我们真正的感情是友情不是网络感情。。。

不知道为什么今晚突然很想拿起相机在家里到处拍一拍。。。

这是今天旁晚六点半的天空

我家的小花园

在打架吗？不是啦～他们在我家草地玩

星星花

2312日的心情分数：50％

PS：今天的分数很底。。。因为病了。。。还有两件事快忘了说。第一件事就是今天在医院碰见了 SHENG LUNG。。。没想到会碰见朋友，因为从来都不曾碰见过。今天医院也特别多帅哥。哈哈。。。不知道什么日子叻！？第二件事就是他的事。我不想多说。。。我要说的四个字就能形容了。“彻底死心”就是这四个字了。。。

My puppy looked so innocent... Or he is sick???!!!

2008-12-22T21:04:00.000-08:00

Not that I want tied him up... But he was just so so naughty OK!? He keep bite mini doggy... And don't even let mini doggy eat. He was so mad that I tied him up. Take peduli me dy...

I tried to go near him, tried play with him... But he walked away, don't want me stay closed to him....

He was just pretend to be innocent jor~ Acting pula... Don't want show his face.

Closer view!!! I stay close to him, still acting cool and pretend to be innocent. Never want look at me. Still mad...

After a few hours, I go back see how was him. OMG~ What happen to him? He look like sick. I'm so so worried. I asked my dad is he sick. But my dad say he was just acting... But~ I'm still worry...

I keep teasing him, but he don't move at all. Not playing with me... Tak peduli me. Is he really ok???

Keep teasing him, but he always with the same pose. Is he really just acting??? Is he really just pretending???

Does he look sick? Someone can tell me??? Really worried... But my dad keep saying that he just pretend to be pity so that we will untie him.

Closer view~ Look at his eyes... He look so pity... If tomorrow still the same then got to bring him to clinic dy...

Do nothing much today... As usual watch movie and onlien... Chatting wif "LAO GONG ZAI" in msn... Can say chat for whole day... Wahaha... Just now go out with mum. Go buy things that I need bring back to KL. Aiz~ She asked me about HIM again... I'm feel like having fever... Feeling sick... 2212日的心情分数：60％

Too much~

2008-12-21T20:07:00.000-08:00

What had been too much oh??? Feelings? Games? Both... Too much feelings and games for me... Is it a good thing? I mean is it good thing having too much feeling? Haha... Of course I know having too much games is not a good thing.

Why??? Why too much feelings and too much games? What feelings??? What games??? Well~ Read my blog then... Haha...

Too much feelings~*

1st feeling comes from dad!~
Actually this feeling is from yesterday... Last till today and haven't end yet. Forget to mention in my blog yesterday. Still remember that I got my final exam's result yesterday rite? When I had finish check my result, i told my mum about it and asked her want to see or not. Well~ She sure want. Then my dad was just sit beside watching his movie. He act cool like don't care about my result. But in less than 2 minutes time, he quickly stand up and stare at my desktop. Looking at my result of course. Haha...I'm very touched loh. I know he loves me a lot and very care about my studies thing. Not that I ego or what ever... But I don't deny that my studies is one of the thing that make my dad very proud with. And I don't deny that my dad love me more compare with my 2 brothers. Of course he love my 2 brothers too... Well~ Just like love them about 100% but love me 101%. Dad, I love you a lot. And mum too... Although we always quarrel, but I love you too. Really!!!

2nd feeling comes from Hui Ngie!~
Read her blog today. A lot feelings from her blog tilI can't explain it. Hurt? Sad? Touched? Happy? Very very complicated... She seems very unhappy. Feel want to ask her, but I din't. Feel that may be better that I don't ask.

2nd feeling comes from Pauline!~
Feeling thanks to her. She is my friend from UPM, my course mate. She helps me a lot honestly. What kind of help? Well~ Any kind... She helps me in many way. Give me a lot of advise, telling me what to do, comfort me, help me buy things, always planed something for me... A lot... I really appreciate her a lot...

3rd feeling comes from xxx!~
I don't want mention who is that. Just can say that is a girl and 1 of my old classmates. That's all... Long time didn't talk to her. Cause between us there is some misunderstand and make her really mad of me. Well~ Because of her some attitude I don't like her too. But that's don't mean that i hate her and don't want talk to her and what ever. She is the one who hate me. Today, I found her at somewhere somewhere lah... (Don't mention better =p) I was thinking already about 1 year dy, all misunderstand should be gone dy. I was trying to aim back this friend so I try start chatting with her. At 1st still ok. But then when chat longer, I feel that everything she says seem... 针对我! Aiz~ Untill now i still angry and make me forget what word is that dy... Yo~ Need so ego or not... Already almost 1 year plus dy, I try to be nice with you but you treat me like this. No more next time ah...

4th feeling comes from Brett Yong!~
He is one of my net friend... Very thankful... Introduce so many games for me and now I'm addicted with games dy.

Too much games~* (**note: All this game are in facebook)

1st game's name is my farm!~

Build farm loh... Very easy~ Plant crops then sell it and earn money. Use the money you earned to buy more crops to plant. Also got plan like fruit trees and animals... And also got shed. All this need money to buy. So need very hardworking to plant crops or fruit trees then sell it loh... I love this games... Well~ I just get started only, didn't have much money to buy crop, plants, animals and shed. What I had now is crop (potatoes, tomatoes, corn, rice, wheat and strawberries),orange tree and a horse. That's all... My farm very small... But nevermind... I will be very hardworking earn money and build my farm. Will make it very nice... wakaka

2nd game's name is dragon wars!~
So many wars game, this is the 1 I love most. Really fun... Not only fight fight fight war war war... But also got build city. Very fun... And most important is some of the quest (which is job that we have to do to earn money and experience so that can top up level) is in 3D form. Waw~ very nice... Not like others war... Not in 3D form. Boring... Earn money to by weapons and city... Do quest can also get some magic item. I know only up to level 9. Need fight hard to earn money so that i can build my city. Gambateh~

3rd game's name is zoo builder!~
This game just build zoo loh... If nop while called as zoo builder leh??? Hahaha... Well~ Just buy land and buy animals. How to earn money? We ll.. That have to depend on other player loh... Means need other player visit your zoo. Then can earn money from 'visitors' ticket. And the land that bought will also give u revenue. Buy some establishment, that will also give you revenue. Very pity... I only got 5 kinds of animals and 2 establishment only. Aiz~ My zoo also no money liaw. But I won't surrender... I will keep build my zoo. Hehe...

4th game's name is metropolis!~
This is another build build game. Build what? Build city loh... Build house, build cafe, build park. This game need always pop pop. Pop other players loh.. Your city revenue all depends on this pop... Pop comes from the word population. Haha... At 1st I also don't know what pop mean. People will pop you then your city population will grow. You will also get revenue from the building you build loh... I now only have grocery shop, bus stop, cafe, pizzeria , house, playground and park.

5th game's name is 义气仔女 online!~
Nothing much... Just do job earn money to buy weapons and place (bar, sauna ....). Do job also help u gain experience and you can top up your level. Places that you had bought will also give you revenue. This is the 1st game I play...

6th game's name is world war!~
World war game... Protecting your own country... Battle with other countries to earn money and top up level. Earn money from war... This game almost the same with others...

7th game's name is 我和绑匪有个约会!~
This game just kidnapped people. I also don't know actually how to play this game and how to reach upper level... Eventhough I already kidnapped quite many people... Haha... Sweat~

8th game's name is mob wars!~
I just started this game. Still don't know much... So can't intro anything. Haha... I just know same as others game too... Do jons, earn more, gain experience... This almost same as dragon wars. Do job and build city...

9th game's name is gangster battle!~
Haha... Same as mob jobs. I just started this game, so don't know much. Hmm... But at least I know mob jobs much better. This gangster battle I still need kaji kaji for a few days...

10th game's name is pet society!~
This game quite fun. You can create your own pet. You can choose the type of mouth, nose, hair... that you like. You take care of it after you had created it. Bath, eat... Bring your pet go walk around, can go shopping. Buy clothes and others... You can also decorate you pet's house. Visit your neighbor and play with them. Thats how you get money.

11th game's name is who has the biggest brain!~
This game test your EQ and IQ... Puzzle... Calculation... Hmm... Others game I don't know how to say... Blek~ Quite fun too... Well!!! Me at the place no. 13 loh... Not bad lah... At least not the last.

OMG~ If I didn't write this blog, I will never know that I play so many games.... 11th games~ Gosh~! I'm addicted dy...

Today's blog superb long... Really TOO MUCH~

2112日的心情分数：70％

松了~

2008-12-20T19:54:00.000-08:00

终于松了一口气．．．终于看到了 FINAL　ＥＸＡＭ　的成绩．好开心哦！意料之中的成绩哟～我真的很满意啦！！！妈说要我再接再厉．．．那轻松的感觉真的没办法形容．嘻嘻．．．刚才还向慧仪埋怨说不能看成绩．回到家开电脑试试看．．．能哦！看到了！看到成绩了！！！哈哈哈．．．

今天终于不用呆在家发霉了．下午和慧仪出去．．．去处　ＰＡＲＫＳＯＮ．好奇怪哦！为什么今天那么多男生做工？而且还是在女生部门叻～男生在女生部门工做，看着女顾客买衣，不会很奇怪吗？=.=!!!　找不到我们要的东西我们就走了．接着去处　ＳＡＲＡＷＡＫ PLAZA. 天啊！！！我竟然不知道 SARAWAK PLAZA 在装修．．．我真的很 OUTDATE 叻~国家时事大事不知道就算了,竟然连自己家乡的事也不知．OMG~

过后我们就去肯亚兰．哈哈．．．你们是不是想说又是肯亚兰呢?嘻嘻~那很像是我和慧仪必去的地方．下雨了~ 我们快变落汤鸡了．之后我们觉得很饿. 真的饿哦！！！本来决定去处　ＴＨＥ SPRING 吃, 但没为放车. 所以呢就去 PANDUNGAN 买些东西带回 KL. 之后就去人间茶访吃我最爱的麻辣面了. 好想念哦! 去到 KL 后根本没机会吃. 真的很好吃哟~ 照片里的东西就是我今天的收获啦! ERM~ 食物本来没那么少的．．．都被家人吃掉了.

吃完当然就回家了啦! 今天早上妈妈还说今晚要出. 唉~ 被她欺骗了感情. 她都没出. 讨厌!~

2012日的心情分数:75%

倒霉的一天

2008-12-19T22:08:00.000-08:00

倒霉事件一:~ 家家有本难念的经
我知道每一家都有自己的经书。每一本都不容易念。。。但为什么我家这本却比别家的难念多？真的觉得很累。看着家里人一直打冷战。。。也许就因为这原因让我想快点回 KL 吧！

倒霉事件二:~ 第二学期的麻烦事
昨夜等了一整晚，因为成绩今天出。等到了十二点竟然不能看成绩。我的妈呀～还好能 REGISTER 我的 COURSE。可是一直进不到网站。。。试了很久才能进，真的快被气死了。到了今天一整天对着电脑，想看成绩。。。还是不能我快被气死了。而且很头同。。。因为早期安排的时间表是最完美的，但有些 COURSE 被报名满了。又要换新的时间表。。。很多时间相撞。。。天啊！头痛死了。。。

倒霉事件三:~ MSN
我的 MSN 被 HACK 了。我从没想过这种事会发生在我身上叻！唉～～～要重新开新的。。。所有的东西－ FRENSTER，TAGGED，HI5 等等都要换新的 EMAIL。气死我了。。。真倒霉。。。

倒霉事件四:~ 晚餐
今天我煮的晚餐。。。我煮的菜竟然忘记下盐。家人却没发现到。我是最后吃的。。。最后才发现。唉～HMM。。。这应该不算倒霉吧！应该说我很有才华吧！哈哈。。。证明我煮的食物不用下盐就很好吃了。证明我很利害啊！哈哈。。。。

1912日的心情分数：75％

18.12.2008... Another raining day + Mdm. Ling Weding Photo

2008-12-18T19:22:00.000-08:00

This few days when I woke up... Looking out from the window... RAIN... Rain... Rain... Rain... Everyday rain and rain for the whole day. Damn cold!~ Freezing... I'm going to be a penguin soon. Haha... Talk about penguin. I just remember an IQ that my fren asked me yesterday. Here is the IQ - "Why is that penguin's body is black in colour but it's stomach is white?" The answer is.... Cause it's hand is too short, so it only can wash it's stomach and can't wash it's body. =.=!!! Sweat rite?! Make me more cold. Hahaha....

My grandpa came just now. My uncle and aunty brought him her... Well~ 2 of my litle naughty cousin also followed them. Really very naughty. Keep runing up and down. Gosh! I really no energy to control them. My grandpa... He really looks old and tired dy. My heart feel so pain. His smile... Wasn't that bright anymore. I miss his smile... Half year diddn't see him, he really get old a lot. This tell me that a person will get old a lot in half year time. I really hope that I will have more time be at his side. But I going back KL soon.

Tidy up my room today. I just realized that not only that cup in my room. Still got some other things of his. His name tag... Form 6 name tag... There was a funny incident happen. I still remember its was the 2nd day we sit for our stpm... I was so naughty. I secretly change his name tag with mine. I was using his, and he was using mine. I didn't told him that I changed. He totally don't know. After finished exam... He still dum dum thought that we took the wrong name tag. The most funny is... He didn't know it till he finish his exam and his fren realized for him. His fren kept laugh at him... Wahaha... Wel~ All this are just memeories now. MEMORIES!!! Now I just hope that he will get away from my MIND, from my BRAIN, from my WORLD... ASAP~ I'm really tired dy...

Result coming out tomorrow... Good luck to you all guys~

Four of my form 6 classmates and 2 of my school teachers had attend Mdm Ling's weding... Now I steal some of the photo and post it in blog...

Is she going to sing??? Cool~

Sing~ Sing~

Posing like little girl... She is cute...

Debra, Angel, Mdm. Ling, Sow Ching, Kee

Going to church.

Church~

Bride with her dad entering the church

"Yes~ I do!!"

Married~

1812日的心情分数：60％

Rain season

2008-12-17T19:29:00.000-08:00

Dis few days keep raining... Cause the road all wet wet. Aiz~ End of the year, rain season. Well~ Everyone says tat raining time, nice to sleep. But why I'm not? This few days I always can't sleep. My eyes very tired, I feel very sleepy... But when I climb to my lovely bed, my eyes don't want have rest pula. I'm really exhausted dy...

Just realized this foto in my camera. Well~ Blacky is giving welcoming kiss... New member of Chin's family. Haha... Feel that this foto look sweet. Haiz~ But This new member seem can't mixed well with my mini doggy oh. I put them in the same house. But always quarrel. Of coz is mini dog loose loh... And new doggy always don't let mini dog eat. Haiz~

Check this out.. Whole page... wow~ That's my Ah Yung Kor Kor loh. Cool~ Proud lah u... Haha... Everyone getting married dy. This all just telling me that I old oledi... Can't be like kids keep stay bside them, have fun with them, play with them..

Today... I was siting in front of my latop. Sudenly heard a car sound... My heart was beeping so so so fast. I'm scared! I noe I'm scared! I admit it. I scared it was him... I not dare have a look. I really scared and don't know what to do. Then at last, it was just a car U-turn. I hope to see him... I know he will come... But just don't know when. Why? Why I still will so scare? Just now my heart was just beeping and seem going to beep out...

1712日的心情分数：60％

陈家新成员。。。

2008-12-16T18:14:00.000-08:00

今天有没有睡够六个小时都不知道耶～昨夜整夜都睡不着，都不知搞什么。唉～早上和下午的咖啡。。。下午的午觉。。。是这两样搞的鬼吗？六点就被妈妈叫醒了。。。要我陪他去买菜。我真的很困叻～=(

陈家今天多了一个成员哦！就是这只小狗狗了。。。可爱吧？名字哦？？？还没取耶！！！嘻嘻嘻。。。今天下午所有的狗狗就在家的花园里玩。另一只小狗竟然给我乱跑，吓死我了。。。还以为它跑出去马路被人抓走了。真皮～

今天是 MS LING 的婚礼哦！他一定很漂亮吧！？今晚呢。。。却是阿永哥哥的婚宴。我没去哦！我哥哥去罢了。。。因为我怕去到那儿我会很寂寞。。。所以还是不去了。而且我也觉得很累。

这几天迷上了 SDO ON9 GAME。想当初我都很不喜欢这些东东的。。。现在竟然会玩。哈哈、、、

1612日的心情分数：60％

恶梦啊～

2008-12-15T20:58:00.000-08:00

昨夜发了一个恶梦～好可怕哦！！！梦到我去到了吃人族。。。=.=!!! 看着他们吃人肉。。。恶心死了。好害怕！找了一个山洞，我急忙藏起来。天啊！我最近都没看鬼戏，也没看什么恐怖片。。。都是在看喜剧啊！为什么会作这种梦？？？天啊！今晚别再有同样的梦了好吗？

我最近都在看不良笑花。。。应该会是白痴的梦才对啊！为什么会变成恐怖梦了？唉～这部戏真的很白痴。给我很多感觉。。。很不错啦！戏里头的将小花，刚开始看时真的觉得她很白痴，很好笑。。。看久了，她的白痴很令人讨厌。可是再继续看下去，她又很令人感动。。。好多感觉哦！很棒！！！将小花在戏里演一位很开朗的女生。被骂不生气。。。被笑不介意。。。如果可以像他那样，那该多好？无忧无虑。。。

今天是我我最爱老师－－MISS LING 的结婚宴哦！一定要幸福哦～很抱歉不能参加你的婚礼。。。老师，你一定要幸福快乐哦！祝福你。。。

1512日的心情分数：65％

累到极点了。。。

2008-12-14T20:55:00.000-08:00

肩膀又酸又痛。。。我累到极点了。这几天都 ON9 到很迟，又很早醒。醒了又一直对着电脑看戏或上网。。。不累垮才怪！！！想要躺下来小睡一下，但躺下了眼睛却不听话。。。都不要关。我真的很累啊！唉～

今天算是蛮特别的一天。因为所有人都在家。。。很久没一家人一起了。。。爸爸，哥哥，弟弟都没上班。。。

全家人一起。。。也没作什么事。下一整天的雨。所以很闷。。。唉～不写了。。。很累~

1412日的心情分数：60％

电脑白痴啊～

2008-12-13T20:37:00.000-08:00

天啊！有谁可以救我啊？我的宝贝 LAPTOP 被我虐待，很可怜。。。前几天 UPDATE MOZILLA FIREFOX 和 INTERNET XPLORER，现在弄到上不到网。最后 COPY DESKTOP 里的 FOLDER 只有 MOZILLA 的能上到网。这还比较好。。。可是！可是！我昨天安装了迅雷。。。然后弄到我的 MOZILLA 有很多问题啊！只要我一开 MOZILLA 然后无论我 CLICK 什么都会一直有那 ALERT 的东西出来。我的天啊！！！上个礼拜我的堂叔才帮我 REFORMAT 好，现在又要 REFORMAT。很不好意思叻～因为他帮我弄是免费的。每次去找他都是要麻烦他。堂叔，你会不会看到我就怕啊？！怎么办？怎么办？有谁能帮我？

唉～其实我刚回到家罢了，和家人出去。我先去检查近视的度数。惨了！加深了。。。原本两边都是 325 现在一边 350 另一边 370 。 OMG～换了眼镜，看东西也清楚了很多。我想看世界。。。看人的心也会更清楚了吧！！！

空着手出去，然后大包小包的回。都是家里用品及吃的。我的收获？没有哦！我没有收获。。。等！等！等！我不是没有收获哦～这包 CHOKI CHOKI 就是我的收获咯！嘻嘻嘻。。。以前小时后很爱吃这 CHOKI CHOKI。。。有很多很多年没吃了。最近不知道为什么又爱上回它了。我的老爸呀～被我影响吧！他也和我争来吃。受不了他哟～～

这只狗～我真的快被它气死。还真的很懒惰。懒狗狗。。。但却是我妈妈的宝贝！OMG～这只狗真的很不客气。从我家，前面走到后面，后面走到前面。天啊～我扫地，抹地很辛苦的叻。。。这还没关系。它还真的很不客气的随便躺下来就睡。很懒惰啊！刚才睡了一整个下午。。。=.=!!!

1312日的心情分数：60％

心情的变化。。。

2008-12-12T21:21:00.000-08:00

今早到下午的心情真的很不错。早上上网。。。然后就被慧仪约出去。很开心，因为我妈妈竞然没唠叨我。哈哈。。。要告诉他我出去时，我真的很怕他会念我。因为这几天都一直出。幸好！幸好！我跟他说我要出时，他什么都没说就说“好”及“不要太迟回”。最后一句很普通，因为他每次都会这么说。但第一句“好”，我听了有点吓到。答应的那么爽快？？？我没听错吧？？？哈哈。。。无论如何，我妈妈没唠叨我。。。真的很开心啊！出的也很安心。

我们的第一站是三哩的 AUNTY CORNER。为了交东西给人罢了。。。之后我们就去 PARKSON 买圣诞礼物。想当初，PARKSON 是我和朋友们以前的地盘。哈哈。。。因为以前读书时经常去那儿逛街。以前和朋友在那儿可以逛最少一个小时，刚才我们只逛半个小时都没到就走了。天啊！从 KL 回来后真的觉得 KCH 的 SHOPPING CENTER 很没什么。买了东西就走。。。

接着我们去肯亚兰。慧仪小姐咯～要买杂志。。。他竟然跟我说他去肯亚兰，一个星期竟然去四次。。。慧仪，对吗？我有听错吗？呵呵呵。。。我那些在 KL 的朋友们，肯亚兰呢算是 CD 天堂。那儿卖很多的 CD。通常别人问可以去那里买 CD，都会说肯亚兰吧！但今天，什么 CD 我都没买到。反而在那儿买了杯珍珠奶茶。嘻嘻。。。

之后我们就去常观世界最大的海上书局 <忠仆号> MV DOULAS。这个书展只有七年一次哦！我最后一次去，是小学的时候。。。这次去，有点失望。没什么。。。走了大概半个小时就离开。本来想拍拍照，但天气太热了。唉～刚才走楼梯上那船时，天啊！很怕人叻～我和慧仪还是穿着高跟鞋啊！上了之后真的很想不要下来。。。不是舍不得，是怕那楼梯啊！下楼梯时，竟然有个男生一直要那楼梯。真的很想宰掉那个人。。。气死了～

刚才听慧仪<忠仆号> MV DOULAS 在 2010年会停止服务。回到家翻一翻报纸，真的哦！它会被新船 LOGOS HOPE 取代，继续海上书局使命。MV DOULAS 不会那么的从此消失，它会被改为水上餐馆。很不错吧！多两年我们就要和 MV DOULAS 说再见了！拜拜～LOGOS HOPE! 我们七年后见吧！

今天的心情真的很不错。。。还自拍了。这张我真的觉得很满意。其实不只这张吧！还有几张自己也觉得很满意。心情好的关系吧！但好的心情不久。。。回到家，妈妈问了我一个问题后，好的心情彻底的消失了。妈妈问为什么他那么久没来找我？问我们是不是变仇人没说话了？之前我和我妈妈说我们没一起后我对妈妈说我们还是朋友。也许是因为以前我和他还没一起，还是朋友时他很常来找我。现在却没来找我，所以就问我为什么。妈妈以为我们只是在感情玩玩。。。我说了很久才说服她。之后我打了通电话给他。之前他答应过会帮我。。。我要他以朋友的身份来我家。就让我妈妈知道我们还是朋友，让我妈妈相信我所说的。他也答应了。。。我对 ANGEL 和 JESS 说了这件事。ANGEL 说我会找他帮忙就说明我还在等他而且见他我更会舍不得。但，我要他帮我是希望我妈妈依然对我还有信心。坦白说！我很想他，我很想见他。。。但我更怕见到他。因为我知道见到他，我的痛还会再回来！我真的不知怎样好。。。我告诉 ANGEL，我的心是在等但我一定不会让我的人在等。。。因为我知道他不值得我这么作了。ANGEL，你说你会陪我一起面对一切，你说到要作到哦！嘻嘻。。。有 ANGEL 真好！还有 JESS 啊！有 JESS 也很好。。。HMM。。。不之他们俩，还有慧仪。有 ANGEL，JESS 及慧仪真好！他们每次都听我发牢骚。谢谢哦～

这两张是刚才心情好时拍的。。。今天拍的照自己真的觉得很满意。心情好，拍照自然好看吧！刚才被妈妈那么问，心情差透了。。。就像从高处掉到谷底。真的很想哭。。被我妈妈弄到很想哭。。。

1212日的心情分数：40％

最美丽的第七天

2008-12-11T19:07:00.000-08:00

看这部戏时，我一直在想为什么会取名为“最美丽的第七天”？为什么会是第七天？为什么不是第六天第八天等等。。。看完了结局才懂为什么。这个名真的很有意思吧！=) 只要能和自己心爱的人在一起，所有的一切都是美丽的。不管期间发生了什么事，不管绕了几圈，只要最后还是一起那都是值得的都是美丽的。。。就像第七天一样那么美丽。就像世界一样的美丽。。。

为什么会是第七天？神用了六天的时间创造了天地万物。到了第七天就完成。这样我们的美丽世界就出现了。所以第七天是最美丽的。每个人的生活都有属于自己的第七天。我的第七天呢？我的第七天几时出现呢？

那个杯子依然还在我房里。。。没把它收起来，因为不想碰它不想看到它。每次进房间都会故意不望去橱那儿。。。每次要去橱拿东西都会故意不看它。。。白天尽量不进房间。。。夜晚进房就不开灯，进去了就直接上床睡觉。。。只为了不看见它。我真的没那勇气拿起那个杯然后把它收起来。。。我只能一直假装它是不存在的。。。

今天一早起身，天空下着雨。。。雨下着下着又停。。。停了又下。。。我的心情就像雨一样。明天又要去验血了。唉~笑着迎接新的一天吧！=) 加油～

1112日的心情分数：70％

Hard to find~ part time job

2008-12-10T20:50:00.000-08:00

Boring again... Watch movie～最美丽的第七天. At first I thought this will be a very boring movie. Just a movie about love... But when i start watch, I really feel that it quite nice... Afternoon have a nap. Oh My God! I forget off my comp and my msn is still there. Everyone thought I'm online-ing. Gosh! Feel sorry... Especially Hui Ngie. She ask me accompany her out. I having nap, didn't see her msg. She called my hp, but I didn't heard it. Sure she had been waiting for my reply.. I'm very sorry ya...

Online tonite... As usual. But tonite online not just msn, facebook, bla bla bla and so on. Tonite I keep stare my eyes on the web, searching for PART TIME JOB. Well~ Many part time job in, but find a job tat suit my time... Really hard... I really hope that i can get a part time job. Not just to earn money... Just I don't want let myself free... I don't want give myself time to think so much. I want let myself busy, busy and BUSY!!!

Tired dy... Searching whole nite but get nothing. From web I found a lot asking for resume. Just realizes my resume that I had typed before lost. So I type again just now. Aiz~ Don't know what happen to the Microsoft... Always hang. I really feel fed up with my laptop dy. Actually wana type my whole resume today. But I really don't have the mood.
Not because of my laptop... I think mostly because of him again I no mood. Aiz~ No need think again lah... 101% because of him I no mood again.

Let myself not to think... I join irc again. Find ppl to chat with... Now... i will just do anything... Just don't give myself time think too much... Chat in irc... No body know who am I. I can just chat anythg in. Not need cover my feeling... At least there is a place that I don't have to act...

1012日的心情分数：65％

Photo's day~

2008-12-09T21:46:00.000-08:00

Was cleaning up my drawer just now. Found there is a book of CD. When I open it up, I just remember all this CD. Most of the CD's content is photo... Photo that took long ago...

Form 5's life at S.M.K Kuching High. I really miss my form 5 life. Miss the day...

SPMKF... Will always remember this class. Funny and active class at ELC...

My huzie~

2008-12-09T18:41:00.000-08:00

Superb BORING day today ok!!!! Just watch movie, on9... As usual... Actually promise acompany Hui Ngie out together, but I don't want leave my mum alone at house. She sure will be very lonely. Aiz~ If I don't go out, I sure will be bored. But nevermind lah~ Mother always the most important.

I took some photo of my house's surrounding today... And also photo of my doggies... Let's have a look.

This is my lovely huzie... Although it looks old, but it content a lot memories. Most important is it content LOVE. My dad and grandpa built this house them self, so it's really very meaningful and valuable. That's our car. BIG VS SMALL

Wad's this??? Of coz it's not a tree... A kind of plant... It's my dad's baby. Can you belif it, this plant is older than me. I'm 20 this year... I really dont know how old is it.

This small small fish pond belongs to my brother and dad... Anything happen to those fish, then we will become dead meat.

Well~ I won't deny that my huzie really looks like a small garden. A lot of flowers and plant .... This just tiny tiny part of it. My dad and mum's hard work...

This really look nice rite??? Pink~ Pink~

Doggy was lost in our lovely garden.

Wow~ Dad! U look more like torturing him ok??!! My dad was trying to play with the puppy... Holding his tail... HAHA... Pity puppy.

My dad was just giving him a help. Puppy want have a ride on the big doggy.

Jump! Jump! Jump! I wana grow tall just like u. J.U.M.P~

0912日的心情分数：65％

Feel nothing but also feel something...

2008-12-08T16:24:00.000-08:00

Finally, I talk to my mum dy about me and his stuff. She just keep quiet. Luckily she didn't continue asking me. Didn't ask me why and bla bla bla... After I told her, my heart was beeping so fast. I really scared she will continue ask me. If she ask me more, I really don't know how to answer her. I also scared I will cry in front of her. He also already told his mum dy. Now both family know, no need hide, no need act drama dy. Jess asked me how I feel. I also not sure. Feel nothing but also feel something...

The GOOD MAN I mentioned before, he still haven't give up. I don't know what to do. I talk clearly to him dy... Sometimes I really feel tak sampai hati reject him. But I really can't say yes to him. Really no feeling. No matter what he did, I don't feel touched. I feel very annoyed with everything he did for me. No feeling... Really no... He is a nice guy, I don't want to hurt him. I didn't mean to. I talk clearly to him dy. Why? Why he still don't give up? Sometimes I do feel want say yes to him, not because I feel touch or what ever... Just feel pity, just don't want he get hurt. Although my feeling feel to say yes, but my heart strictly say no. If I say yes, but my heart no him... This is very unfair for him, this will hurt him... If I say no, this will also hurt him... If I do say yes, then it just because I feel PITY on him. Haiz~

Do nothing today... Just go visit grandma, watch movie, on9 .... bla bla bla as usual~ So bored... Feel dying. This time really feel dying. My Internet Explorer and Mozilla Firefox... I don't know what happen lah... Can't go in web. Just now go in Myspace... It has something about update Internet Explorer... After download now my Internet Explorer cant go in web... Mozilla Firefox also the same. Who can help me ah? Now what I do is copy the Mozilla Firefox folder from my desktop and save in my laptop. Luckily can ah!!! But Internet Explorer still can't. Yo~ I just passed my laptop for my uncle to reformat and just got it back. I don't want trouble my uncle again leh. Very pai seh oh. I'm having a big head now...

Hmm... My Ah Yung Kor Kor come just now. Give us BIG RED BOM... He getting married soon lah. Next Tuesday oh!!! At first when viewing his frenster, I thought he was just kidding... Mana tau send us a red bom today. He very verry handsome oh! My very handsome de kor kor... His wife also very pretty. Look just like little girl... Congratulations~

Sis exam coming soon oh. Gambateh ya~ Good Luck!

0812日的心情分数：60％

My first 25th day~

2008-12-07T07:11:00.000-08:00

Today is my 25th day at Kuching... Since I bcak till now I never wake up so early. Today is the first time. Wake up at 6am something and follow my mum to Sunday market (morning market). Honestly, I'm really feel lazy wana acompany my mum. But last nite she was asking me wana folow her onot... I tak sampai hati want reject lah... So.... Aiz~ I'm really tired and lazy... Honestly!!! But surely I didn't tell her this lolx... Another reason I don't feel wana go there is because of him. He work at there before... Before we two together, I really love to go there. Coz will see him at there... But now....

When I refresh back my childhood memories... Everything was still very vivid.... When I was young, I really really love follow my mum to morning market. The nite before after I noe my mum will go to morning market, I will be very very exiciting. I sure will ask my mum to wake me up let me follow her, no matter how early also must wake me up. That time I really feel so happy to follow my mum. Coz I can eat the food I like... I can go and choose myself. The food that I really love is apam balik. I really love that. But this morning, I don't feel like eating apam balik anymore. I don't feel very exiciting wana go there anymore. The feeling that I got during childhood... GONE!!!

This morning when I pass by the place that he worked at before... I not dare to look up... I just look down to the floor when pass by. WHY??? My feeling??? I don't know. Feel nothing... But also feel something.

After reached home, as usual eat my breakfast... watch movie... Then cook lunch... Till 11am something Angel come and pick me up. We go PC fair oh~ Before that we go BDC pick Angel's frens... OMG!!! This year's PC fair reallyvery lousy. Everything very messy. Aiz~ Don't know how to describe ah... My head was so pain at there... Almost fainted!!! This batch PC fair belong to my juniors dy... At there everywhere can see all my juniors working around. During my batch... Can see all my frens working at there. Aiz~ We all really grew up dy... Now is junior's world liaw...

Well~ We met quite a lot of frens there. That we had already expect about. Let me refresh back who we meet... Hhhmmm.... Ee Feng, my "daddy" King Haw, Cindy, Ying Hui, Christopher Chai, da ge Guan Tzuen (well... He is the eldest in my form 6 class, so we call him da ge).... Still meet a lot of frens... But don't know their name =p Hehe... And! And! And! Someone that I really not feel to meet. CHUAN HAO~ Not that I hate him... Just I never expect I will ever met him. And I never expect that when I met him I will have such a STRONG don't wan's feeling... He is HIS best fren. Last time we always hang out together. Still remember that during form 6 we always have breakfast and lunch together... Luckily that he din't saw me. When i saw him, I quickly hide myself... Why??? Why I so scared???

Haiz~ After that we send our fren back to BDC... Left four of us (Me, Angel and two of Angel's fren). We go "Hai Nan Jie" eat lunch. Lastly we bring her frens back home at Stutong Baru. Before send her back, we go visit SNAKE. Wow~ The snake was really huge. Didn't take down any foto, coz the snake sleep sleep in cage and so dark...

Our journey's today haven't end oh!!! Journey for me and Angel. Haha... After send all her frens back then we go BDC Everise buy something something... Then we go WD Collection. Quite lots of clothes there. But all the clothes almost the same pattern. Angel did bought a dress for her. ME??? Nop... I buy nothing at all. I just buy for my mum... Buy shirt for my mum...

Chong Lin Plaza our last destination loh... Then we back home dy... Wad a day~ Just like this my 24 hours gone and the new 24 hours come again =)

P/S: I heard from da ge Guan Tzuen that there will have 3 persons go Ms Ling wedding ceremony at Sibu... Who are those 3 oh!!! Please let me know... Thanks~

0712日的心情分数：80％

给惠雁姐的话

2008-12-06T19:35:00.000-08:00

姐姐，我昨夜不乖。。。又哭了。。。之后我的朋友打给我安慰我。。。我有两个好朋友，我们三个的感情很好。昨夜他们轮流打给我。然后我们三个又在MSN里聊天聊到凌晨一点多。

其实我以为自己不会再哭了。。。但没作到。。。可是也没有哭到稀里哗啦。。。哭完也比较舒服。因为一直以来我都把眼泪憋着。

他们安慰的。。。说的。。。都是那些。。。虽然是一样的东西，但我很感激。。。他们说的那些，我也很清楚的知道。其实我自己很清楚的知道，时间过了，久了，我对这件事就不会怎么样。。。及以后见到他，我也不会觉得怎样。甚至觉得陌生。。。因为这些都过去了。。。

昨夜他们也劝我，如果有天他回头，要我别吃回头草。和你一样，他们也说，变了就是变了即使有天他回头，我的心依然有疤痕。。。我们的感情依然有个缺口。。。这些对以后都会有影响。。。

我每次都问自己，如果有天他回头，真的能吗？对着他。。。还会有那份安全感吗？自己很清楚的知道自己的心还在等着他。。。等着他回头。。。但我自己也知道如果有天真的和复合，和他一起后我也不会再有那安全感。当他出去时，我会怀疑他和谁一起。当他电话响起时，我会猜疑谁打给他。当他的电话有信息时，我会一直猜测是谁信息他，甚至想偷看那信息。我会不给他私人空间作自己的事，因为怕他和其他人一起。。。他的电话打通了但没接，我会一直狂打。。。因为怀疑他瞒着我和其他人一起所以不接我电话。那么多那么多的怀疑。。。要怎么的一起生活呢？？？那么多那么多的怀疑，真的很辛苦。。。

也和你说的一样，他们也叫我不必再去要那个心想要的答案。。。把脑里的问题简单化它。我的朋友，之前他的男朋友都只是给他一个信息说分手，没给他任何理由。之后我朋友也一直很想知道理由是什么。。。但没得到。到了现在四年了。。。在街上遇见那个前男友，他都觉得陌生觉得没什么。而心里一直想知道的那个理由，也变的没什么。。。因为都已经是过去式了。

其实这些我都懂。。。我懂因为之前四年的感情让我懂。。。四年了，我在街上遇回他，我也真的觉得没什么。。。也觉得陌生。。。我知道现在我需要的是时间。。。我可以对朋友们保证我会坚强。但我不能保证我不会偶尔又伤心。我的朋友也都用了一年的时间才不会那么的伤，所以。。。我会慢慢的疗伤。我不会再因为偶尔的伤心而变的脆弱。。。我不会再因为偶尔的伤心而放弃。。。而我会因为偶尔的伤心让自己变的更坚强。。。

我的心。。。不会再有怨有恨有伤。。。我也不会再去问他什么。。。见到就像朋友一样。。。但我不能保证见到他我能忍着不去问他任何东西。即使问了。。。我也不会再怎样了。曾经拥有过，我已满足了。。。至少他所有的第一次都是给我。。。至少我曾经得到他真正的爱。。。至少我有很多回忆。。。很多美好的回忆。。。虽然有这半年不好的回忆，但一年的美好回忆足够给我去掩盖那些不好的回忆。。。

今天早上一起身就很想把昨夜不开心的事告诉姐姐。。。所以就在 MSN 里留了这一大堆的话给姐姐。我答应姐姐的事，我一定会作到。姐，你的考试也快到了。要加油哦～

三个傻婆～

2008-12-06T19:22:00.000-08:00

昨夜不开心，ANGEL 就陪了我。心情好多了，就上网走走。。。MSN 里遇见勤莲，他知道我不开心所以也我了。之后又打给我和我聊天。。。可以说他们两个昨夜轮流陪我！聊完了电话，就发现 ANGEL 进了 MSN所以就叫勤莲一起在 MSN 里聊天。那时都要十二点了。。。三个傻婆在凌晨上 MSN 聊天。。。

我，勤莲及 ANGEL 三个都是好朋友。我先认识勤莲。。。我们俩小学就认识了。上了中学，我们就认识了 ANGEL。。。也不知为什么我们三个会成为好朋友。中三完毕，勤莲就去了 NEW ZEALAND 留学。我们三个很久都没有一起出去玩一起聊天了。昨夜三个就一起在 MSN 里聊天。虽然没办法见面聊天，但这样就很好了。。。也用 WEBCAM 见面。。。

说到用 WEBCAM 就想起昨夜被他们给“炸”到。起初我先开 WEBCAM。。。很好啊！他们都看到我。之后我就等 ANGEL 的。。。迟迟没见到他，到最后他才发现他没 ACEPT 我的 INVITATION。天啊！！！再然后，等了老半天也看不到勤莲。。。之后他却告诉我们他没 INSTALL 到 WEBCAM 的 SOFTWARE。。。天啊！我真的要晕！

我们也没聊很久。。。因为我的 MSN 不知道搞什么鬼一直 HANG 着。最后聊到一点多我就不聊了。。。弄来弄去也只有机会拍到我和 ANGEL 的 MSN。唉～

我们三个真的很久没一起了。长大了，各有各的忙。。。各有各的世界。三个都在不同的地方读书。我在 KL， ANGEL 在 KCH，勤莲却在更远。。。 NZ。。。我还好，还能跟他们其中一个见面。勤莲放假就会回 KL，那我们还能见面。我呢假期就回 KCH，那就能和 ANGEL 见面。我们三个几时才能聚一聚呢？很想念以前。。。希望过不久我们三个能一起坐下来好好聚一聚。。。那时候大家应该都有自己的成就了吧？！几时呢？我们要不要来个约定呢？

昨夜真的很谢谢你们陪了我。。。我今天的心情也好很多了。谢谢哦～今天看了一整天的戏 <爸爸闭X>。那个 X。。。因为不知那个字是什么所以就放个 X。。。嘻嘻。。。很好笑的一部戏。。。也很温馨的一部戏。真的很适合全世界的爸爸看哦！

0612日的心情分数：70％

给 ANGEL 的部落格

2008-12-05T21:05:00.000-08:00

这是我今天写的第二个部落格！第一个部落格，我是抱着很差很差的心情写的。。。但这个部落格是抱着舒服的心情写的。虽然不是开心或轻松。。。但舒服。。。很好了。。。这样我就满意了。。。

刚才心情不好。。。和 ANGEL 通了电话。她劝了我很多。。。也安慰了我。。。我的心情好很多。ANGEL 自己也经历了很多，所以现在的他成熟很多。比我成熟。。。我和他比。。。真的差太远了。。。我知道时间慢慢的过，我也会慢慢的随着时间忘记这些事。不应该说是忘记吧！是随着时间，这些事对我就会是很小很小的事了。。。不会把这些事当作一回事。。。其实这些我知道啊！四年了。。。H 的事到了现在还不是对我来说根本都没什么。都过去了。。。其实自己也很清楚知道时间过了我就会慢慢的没事。但。。。多久呢？又象以前一样四年吗？

ANGEL 之前的情况比我差吧！他也都用了一年的时间。。。虽然不是完全忘记。。。至少心舒服了很多很多。他都熬的过，为什么我不能呢？不吃回头草。。。ANGEL，我会永远的记住你的话。就像你说的，变了就是变了即使有天他回头，我的心依然有疤痕。。。我们的感情依然有个缺口。。。这些对以后都会有影响。。。

其实我自己也很常问自己，如果有天他回头，真的能吗？对着他。。。还会有那份安全感吗？自己很清楚的知道自己的心还在等着他。。。等着他回头。。。但我自己也知道如果有天真的和复合，和他一起后我也不会再有那安全感。当他出去时，我会怀疑他和谁一起。当他电话响起时，我会猜疑谁打给他。当他的电话有信息时，我会一直猜测是谁信息他，甚至想偷看那信息。我会不给他私人空间作自己的事，因为怕他和其他人一起。。。他的电话打通了但没接，我会一直狂打。。。因为怀疑他瞒着我和其他人一起所以不接我电话。那么多那么多的怀疑。。。要怎么的一起生活呢？？？那么多那么多的怀疑，真的很辛苦。。。

ANGEL。。。如果有天我回头，你一定一定要把我拉回来知道吗？无论怎样都要把我拉回来。。。

ANGEL。。。真的很谢谢你！

什么答案？

2008-12-05T18:50:00.000-08:00

今天没和他见面。。。为什么？不知道。他也没打莱交代一声。以前都是这样，明明约好了见面可是却没见到。因为阿姨那儿每次都会突然很忙。但这次唯一不同的是不会再像以前一样会和我交代一声了。。。

其实自己的心到底想不想见到他呢？不懂耶～想吧！但其实心里一直一直都很害怕见到他，不是吗？陈婉珊！怎么啦？怎么现在突然哭了？眼泪突然要从眼眶里逃出来。。。但被我捷住了。不可以哭！我不可以让自己哭的。。。

虽然害怕，但其实自己一直都想见他只是因为想的到些答案。但我到底要些什么答案呢？我自己的心到底想从他那而知道些什么，其实都不清楚。那么见面了，要说些什么？要问些什么？是答案还是解释？或许心里最想知道的是那段时间到底发生了什么事吧！

刚才我VIEW了她的FRENSTER。。。因为看到朋友ADD了她。。。想确定是不是那个她。。。自己以为会没事，真的太冲动了。进去时。。。我全身都在抖。。。我很有事。。。真的很有事。。。到现在身体还在抖着。。。

0512日的心情分数：30％

日子依然要过。。。

2008-12-04T19:35:00.000-08:00

是因为雨吗？还是因为他？心情变的闷闷不乐。雨下了一整个下午。停了又下。。。下了又停。。。

他昨夜回了。。。我们的距离拉近了，但心却很远很远。那次见面，我把自己的日记给了他，昨夜想跟他拿回，但他说丢掉了。那时我的心真的很痛很痛。但我没哭，真的没哭。跟他聊起我们的事，他还是老样子。都是我在说，他一直静静的。就因为每次都知会静静的，我的心一直都得不到我要的答案。。。我要的解释。。。所有的事，不是说想放就放，想忘就忘。我不是圣人！拜托你不要把我当圣人看待可以吗？我只是个很普通的女孩，我和其他女孩一样也是很脆弱的。你对我说过的每一句话，每一个字都深深的刻在我心上，一辈子都不会忘。心上的疤痕。。。永远都不会消失。。。

也许明天会和他见面。姐姐和 JESS 知道后都怕我还会再受伤害。JESS 问我不怕吗？怕！我当然怕！但此中都要面对吧！如果自己没办法面对他，那我要怎样走出来？没有答案。。。心里的结根本永远打不开。。。跟姐聊了很多。姐姐也给了我很多劝告。。。今天跟姐说了很多东西，聊了很多事。。。把闷在心里的话说出来，舒服了很多。在 MSN 里写了很多很多的字。所有的东西打完出来。。。就象发泄一样。。。打打打！！！把一切打完出来。。。

姐姐说会煮猛婆汤给我喝。ERM。。。是猛婆汤这样写吗？应该是吧！嘻嘻。。。猛婆汤？如果世上真的有猛婆汤那该多好？！喝了就忘记一切。姐姐跟我说了一个他朋友的故事。。。这个故事听起来。。。有百分之八十和我很像。无论是真的故事还是只是编出来安慰我的故事。。。只要是姐姐说的我都回信。姐，谢谢你！谢谢一切。。。

没有他，日子依然要过。。。这我知道！姐，放心吧！=)

0412日的心情分数：50％

T.I.R.E.D

2008-12-03T21:12:00.000-08:00

I'm really tired for today. Really! Truely! This morning accompany my mum to G.H (General Hospital). She had appointment at Orthopaedics Clinic. Oh my gosh~ I nearly fainted when I reached there. "People mountain people sea" ah~ So many people. Really feel dying... We reached there around 10.15am. My mum's appointment is at 10.30am. Guess how long I had been waiting at there. We had wait for about 3 hours at there. Appointment at 10.30am... 1pm smth reached our turn. Oh gosh! Reach home around 2pm... Yo~ I'm really tired of waiting k. Aiz~

Reached home then have rest and continue watch Heart Of Greed. So boring... Nothing else can do. So on9 chat with sister. Nothing interesting topic to chat. We just chat boring thing. Sister said she felt sleepy. I advise her to slap herself then wouldn't feel sleepy liaw. But she scared her colleague will think she got crazy. Haha... Ok loh!!! She don't want slap herself then I slap loh... =p Oh my God! If got thunder I must quickly hide myself. Slap sister leh... Will hit by thunder oh! Hahaha...

My baby laptop back oledi... Just went to Saberkas get my laptop. Feel fad up . Got many things forget ask my uncle help me install. Aiz~ Everytime I wanted to go to a place, I will think a question. "Have i being here with him before?" Sometimes I do forget whether we ever being to that place together or not. Sometimes keep asking myself why I still want to think all this stupid question. Hmm... I don't know....

I write blog everyday. I think all my frens already get fad up that everyday in their mail box with my blog update notifications mail. I do ask myself why. Blogger... Blogger had become a place for me to speak out all my problems all my feelings. Sometimes the best way for letting myself feel better is not speak to someone... But it write it all down. Long long ago... There is someone who will lend his ear for me. Hear everything I complain... No matter how late the time is... No matter how long my complain is... He will still lend his ear for me. But now... No more... So now I only can speak in blogger. Tree and fruit... The story of tree and fruit just end like this???

He back Kuching today. 9.30pm flight. Now should had finished check in and wait at airport now. Still got few more hours then our distance will be very very very near... Our distance is just so so near... But our hearts are just so so far. I miss him. Honestly I miss him a lot. My heart will wait... Just wait... FOREVER

0312日的心情分数：60％

same way~ same road~ same feeling~

2008-12-02T19:54:00.000-08:00

Just been to my aunty's house just now. Same way... Same road... Same feeling... His house and my aunt's house at the same area. So the way, the road... all the same. And my feeling, also still the same. My dad drove just now. And me just closed my eyes pretend having nap in car. I purposely do this. Coz... I afraid there is something that I see will bring back all memories and make me sad again. But... useless... The air... The feeling... Still the same. No matter how I close my eyes... But I can't close my heart. I didn't really close my eyes for the whole way. I do sometimes open my eyes... Open the window and get some fresh air. Well~ I do secretly let myself refresh back some memories... I thought I will be very very very sad and my tears will burst out. But I didn't. Yes! I'm hurt. I'm sad. But the feeling... I still can stand on it... He coming back kuching tomorrow. My feeling??? I don't know...

Reach my aunt's house... But my cousin haven't reach home. So excited to meet my sis-in-law (cousin's wife). They married on September. I didn't attend their wedding ceremony coz me at UPM. Aiz~ Wait and wait and wait. Finally they back home. Yo~ She is really pretty... Have a pretty nice smile... She looks very frenly. Well~ I like her a lot. She pregnant oh! Four months dy... Yahooo~~~~ That's mean next year semester break when I back kuching... Got another new member in my family loh... So happy~

Aiz~ My that cousin... He become so lazy... Didn't do exercise and his tummy coming out dy... Kor Kor ah~... Now is u pregnant or sis get pregnant??? Please lah!!! Go do gym... If next year semester break after I back and still got the same tummy... Hehehe... I will take photo and post it in blogger oh!!! So young already got tummy... Aiz~

Hmmm... Got a news today! Seem that all my frens msn personal message all write about this news... Kuching High Got Burnt... Wow~ My former school got burnt leh. Heard that quite serius. Even my cousin who never study at that school and not work at that area also know about it. Just now when he saw me, then he ask me about it... Don't know hows my school now. Heard that science lab and office got burnt. OMG! My cert leh... My spm 1119 eng cert still there. I still plan want go back take oh. Don't know all the cert still ok onot... Aiz~

0212日的心情分数:60%

Monday 1.12.2008

2008-12-01T18:43:00.000-08:00

Well... i don't know wad should i put for my blog title today. So i just put today's day and date as my blog title. Quite a boring day today. Aiz~ Everyday boring de lah... Today... As usual... Continue my movie~ Heart of Greed. Watching whole day leh. This movie... not very interesting but also not very boring loh.

Not only watch movie, sure oso got on9. Chat wif sister in msn....... * LOST AND FOUND * Suddenly this two words appear in my mind. Well~ God is fair. Eventhough i lost him... But I found something else. I found a sister that love me a lot. She let me know tat how's the feel of having a sister. Well... That's really a great feel. I love it so much... =) It's really very nice tat having a sis and can share my feelings to her..

Finally my dearest pretty pretty Ms. Ling had upload her wedding photo in friendster. She is really marvelous k. She is really very pretty. Just like a princess. Ms. Ling... Must happy and 'xin fu' oh. I really hope that I can see you with your wedding gown, not just see through your wedding photo. Wish you happy forever and ever....

Whole day watch movie and on9 really very boring... So I find something else to do. Hehehe... Help my doggies take photo make album. Aiz~ I always do thing half half, don't have patient. Grrrrhhh.... Not that i don't have patient lah... Is that two doggies keep walking here and there non-stop. Want take their photo really hard ah!!! Grrrrhhh...

This doggy, so small already learn act cool. Don't want look at the camera.

For this doggy, he don't like act cool. But he like to have cat walk... Ooops~ Should be dog walk.

Fast fast call police... Doggy is kissing under age doggy...

Let me accompany you ya~ Sayang~ Sayang~

I really wander is he a mini doggy... This doggy already many months big dy, but his size really really very small... Look at this photo, just like a dot on the floor.

Ok! Ok! I didn't say anything bad about you. Don't look at me like this. I just say u have a mini size body nia. Blek~

0112日的心情分数:60%

差~

2008-11-30T17:29:00.000-08:00

今天的心情真的很差很差.看了一整天的潼心风暴...可是还是不能让心情好回.昨天糊涂完了现在又心情不好吗?陈婉珊啊!陈婉珊!你到底在搞什么啊?
一整天脑里一直都是那些有的没的东西.这些东西几时才能消失呢?很累...

If someone breaks your heart, don't go through the trouble and pick up the pieces. Instead, leave on the ground and hope they will cut their feet when they walk away....

陈婉珊!这两句话难到你忘了吗?这两句话你一定要时时刻刻带在身边,知道吗?每当你不开心时,就把这句话拿出来看吧!不要因为他而不开心了.多不值得啊!啊男人啊!!!你忘了你自己说过的一句话吗?这句话你在你自己的 MSN　ＰＥＲＳＯＮＡＬ　ＭＥＳＳＡＧＥ　里也留过的啊！

Guy is just a demand, not a necessities.

不要再不开心了，知道吗？多不值得啊！还有啊！你还记得　ＶＥＮＩＣＥ　ＦＲＥＳＮＴＥＲ　里的一句话吗？

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life.

虽然这句话她说的时候不是指着你．．．但如果把这句话用在你身上的话，你自己应该很清楚的知道是什么意思对吧！陈婉珊，加油哦～珍惜你现在有的时间．加油！加油！

3011日的心情分数：４０％

新的我＋糊涂的我

2008-11-29T20:27:00.000-08:00

今天和 ANGELINE　一起去我弟弟的发院弄头发．我把头发弄圈了哦！新的我．．．．嘻嘻嘻．．．今天算是新的我!但也是糊涂的我!我一直以为今天是星期五叻!上个星期五和 ANGEL 出时却以为那天是星期六.一直把星期五和六倒反哦!我不止糊涂到这样.谁都知道镜子照的东西是反方向的吧?刚才坐着弄发时我从镜子里一直看着外头马路.然后我的心就一直很疑惑,一直问自己:"那马路一直以来都是去的路,但为什么现在却变了回的路?为什么反方向了?路能变方向的吗?"这个问题我在那而疑惑了很久很久...后来我才醒悟是因为镜子的关系.天啊!我想你们一定拿我没办法吧???哈哈哈....我自己都拿自己没办法.我的妈呀~

ＡＮＧＥＬ　染了头发．．．我就弄圈．．．天啊！要回时竟然下大雨．．．头发刚弄好叻！气死了．．．弟弟的发院还好有雨伞．我跟我弟开口借发院的雨伞，他们笑笑对我说：＂拿吧！那些雨伞好象都不是我们的．以前的顾客留下的．＂天啊！你们都爱收集顾客的雨伞哦？？？那而不只一把叻～大概都有十把吧！刚才应该把它给拍下来才对．．．唉～

之后我们就去附近的衣服店－－ＦＡＳＨＩＯＮ NEWS.在那而有收获哦!今天又有收获了. OH　ＭＹ　ＧＯＤ！我一直在花钱哟！怎么办？买了一件很性感的黑裙．还不曾买过那么短的裙．．．第一次．．．今天的收获还有一样,那就是腰带了. ANGEL说我为什么最近一直买腰带．那也是！那天和他出也买了一个腰链．嘿嘿～在那而猜我遇到了谁？？？ＤＥＢＲＡ SIM OK!!!不是很想遇的人...但也不至于讨厌啦!刚开始和 ANGEL 还想避开他.我们很快的就下去.哪知过不久他也下...避不了了.他也看到了我.他蛮惊讶一下然后就对我说哈咯!就这样罢了！当然我也不想多说什么啦！哈哈．．．我知道我很坏．＝Ｐ　他变了哦!但不是变美啦!!!我什么都没说哦!只是说没变美哦!嘻嘻嘻...原本还以为不会下雨了,所以就没拿雨伞下.但从衣店出来后又下雨了.老天在玩我吗?气死了!过后才发现原来我的包包里是有雨伞的.刚才还要跟弟弟的发院借.陈婉珊,你今天是怎么搞的???

上了车后... ANGEL 说他饿了,想吃饱穿暖MCD...我们就一直一直想想看那里的MCD有可以避雨的MCD...都没有叻~算了!就去处 THE　ＳＰＲＩＮＧ　吧！我们去吃热狗．．．在等着的当儿，我的糊涂病又来了．我忘了自己刚才有没有锁车啦！天啊！我叫　ＡＮＧＥＬ　等我，我就去看看．．．我又糊涂了．我在　ＣＡＲＰＡＲＫ　一直走来走去．为什么？因为我忘了车　ＰＡＲＫ　在哪里．天啊！只好打给　ＡＮＧＥＬ求救.我的天啊!今天的我怎么了? 之后我们就去逛逛...然后就去吃...ERM....不只怎么叫那东西.就餐确 MASHMALLO 沾 CHOCOLATE 吃的.没什么好逛的...就回了.现在呢就不只我糊涂啦! ANGEL 也糊涂了.为什么???因为我们走上走下都找不到去 CARPARK 的门.累死了!一直绕整个 SPRING....

老天今天真的把我给玩死了啦!之后帮我妈妈去买号码...超多人的.真的觉得很不好意思哦!因为最年轻的.买了就快快走啊!唉~出了一整个下午,眼睛都累了.但很不甘愿要去睡,因为想看我最爱最爱的柯楠.嘻嘻嘻....

弄发前　　　　　　　　　　　　　弄发后
照片里看的出有什么分别吗？有！有分别！一个的脸会闪闪发亮一个不会．哈哈．．．

今天的收获～性感的黑裙．．．

我的第二样收获～腰带

我和　ＡＮＧＥＬ．．．　ＹＵＭＭＹ～　ＹＵＭＭＹ～　ＣＨＯＣＯＬＡＴＥ　好吃！好吃！

2911日的心情分数：85%

累垮了~

2008-11-28T22:01:00.000-08:00

今天真的累垮了啦!算是出一整天吧!唉~还没说去哪里前...先说说一件事吧!妈妈今天又问起他了.天啊!我真的不知道要怎样啦!我快发疯了...我很想找机会跟妈妈说清楚,但就是没机会啊!每次妈妈问我他回了没有,我答完他说还没他就没再问什么了.你说嘛~这样我要怎样继续下去讲啊!都没有好的机会.头痛~　不行！一定要快点找机会才可以．

好了!不说这了...今天很早就醒.跟我的医生先生约了八点拿我的验血报告.我六点半就醒了叻!七点开车.我的妈呀~足足等了一个小时多才有位 PARKING.医生看了我的验血报告...一踏糊涂的,就问我验血前有没有先绝食.都没叻!!!医生先生...是你自己突然要我验血的叻!那前晚当然没开始绝食啦!!!唉~就因为这样我又要再验多一次血...讨厌!!!

弄完一切后就回家咯!下午慧仪又来载我出了.陪他去处　ＥＬＥＣＴＲＡ HOUSE　问　ＰＲＩＮＴ　Ｔ－ＳＨＩＲＴ　的东西．那个别招待我门的人．．．虽然是土族，但他真的长的很帅！嘿！嘿！嘿！不只是我这么说哦！连慧仪都说他帅叻！不信？自己问她咯！ＢＬＥＫ～可是可是!!!虽然是帅...但他矮了点. ERM~应该是很多点才对吧!哈哈哈...慧仪也那么觉得的.

好啦～弄完了接下来就麻烦慧仪载我去处　ＳＡＢＥＲＫＡＳ　啦！因为我要拿我的手提电脑去修理．．．放下了电脑我门就去载慧仪的妹妹．那个小妹妹刚从　ＳＥＭＡＴＡＮＧ　回．玩了两天三夜．在车里一直跟我们抱怨这个那个．．．这个小妹妹还是那么的可爱啊！

回到家后，爸爸就说要去公公家．十二哩叻～幸好！！！不是我开车．嘻嘻．．．我的天啊！我只不过离开古晋四个月多罢了．去阿公家明明就会经过三个交通圈．　ＯＨ　ＭＹ　ＧＯＤ！　三个交通圈全不见了．天啊！变那么快吗？我快认不到路了啦！！！　所有的事真的变的很快．．．时间也过的很快．．．

阿公家多了一只很　ＫＡＷＡＩＩ　的小猫哦！虽然在宿舍猫是　ＫＩＮＧ OF ＨＯＳＴＥL 所以看到猫就很讨厌...但也许是还小的关系,这只小猫我真的觉得很可爱哦!

太亮了!吓坏可爱的猫咪了...对不起哟~

可爱的猫咪~别耍酷了.再拍多一张嘛!!!

唷~猫咪生气了...不再睬我了...

今天突然有个念头...突然想认亮妤为乾女儿.我是认真的哦!!!嘻嘻嘻...会不会太年轻呢???我是说我啦!会不会太年轻当妈妈呢???还没真正决定.还没问过惠雁姐的看法.问了他后再决定吧! =)

2811日的心情分数:75%

牙痛～

2008-11-27T19:13:00.000-08:00

哎哟～今天的心情超差的。为什么？？？牙痛咯～痛死我了！！！所以下午吃了止痛药就睡了一整个下午。好久没牙痛了。没想过还会痛回来。。。
今天早上本来是约了我的医生拿我的验血报告。哪知我的医生竟然放我飞机。。。他拿病假了。。。医生先生！你真没良心。你忘了今天越了我吗？我怎样都是从小被你照顾到现在的叻！
唉～算了！都出来了，所以就载妈妈去逛逛街下。今天到底是什么日子啊？是因为我牙痛所以很多事都不顺吗？今天差点撞到别人的车。当然不是我的错啦！我从 ROUNDABOUT 出去高速公路，那车在小路出。。。没等我的车过，他就直接直冲割我的路。天啊！我在高速公路上叻！还好我没驾的太快。。。还来得及煞车，不然。。。。唉～不敢想！！！

2711日的心情分数：60％